Monday, February 27, 2006
haiz..
haiz.. tryin to find ALL MY LIFE de lyrics but cant find... nvm lo.. im sure i can find it one day... nw 1.25 le gt to go wk le.. sianz.. tired sia...
confuseme [9:25 PM]
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HARD TO SAY IM SORRY...-Az yet [u jus a part of me i cant let go..]
Everybody needs a little time away I heard her say, from each other Even lovers need a holiday Far away from each other Hold me now It's hard for me to say I'm sorry I just want you to stay And after all that you've been through I will make it up to you, I promise you And after all that's been said and done You're just a part of me I can't let go Couldn't stand to kept away Not for a day, from your body (baby, I can't live without you, not even day) Wouldn't wanna be swept away Far away from the one that I love Hold me now It's hard for me to say, I'm sorry I just want you to know Hold me now I really wanna tell you I'm sorry I could never let you go After all that we've been through I will make it up to you, I promise you And after all that's been said and done You're just a part of me I can't let go
confuseme [9:21 PM]
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ALL GUYS ARE BASTARD N TAT E FACT NTH GONNA CHANGE IT....!!!
ya..it reali is true tat all guy r bastard no matter hw caring hw gd they r.. they r still a bastard.. time can show tat.. actually i dun reali tink so but aft ytd... i agree wif it... they jus an idiot who wan wat they wan...n they onli hv 1 thing on their mind when they in a relationship..!! haiz.. reali disappointed in u.. i tot i could trust u.. i already enough sad n fan le den u add more burden to me.. reali cant take it anymore.. haiz.. dun wan to tok abt it le.. hate guys to e core.. dun blame me for being cold to you...
ytd reali no mood to wk at all.. do cashier got so many mistakes.. den get scoldin frm manager sayin y i so sianz n no mood...reali dun hv e energy to do anyth.. ya.. im doin cashier but my mind is half there half tinkin abt other things.. cant concentrate at all.. sum more i whole day headache.. wa.. ytd i keep smokin.. jus keep lightin up n smoke lo.. reali wan to torture myself to death.. dun wan to live any more.. y every week sure got problem de.. last week tat n nw tis.. den wat next next week.. haiz..dun wan to say le.. ytd little gal aft watchin movie den cm pasta c me cuz i ask her cm bugis watch movie la..den she say i treat her pizza den she cm den ok lo i treat her eat banana pizza n another 10 inch pizza.. ALERT.. if u ever cm pasta mania try e banana pizza.. it a dessert...cost $3.50 onli.. haa.. den e manager ask e little gal dun disturb me cuz wait i blurr.. haa.. as in y i call her little gal.. cuz she look lyk little gal lo... short short.. quite cute la.. but nt as cute as
"sum1" else... haa.. ya lo.. den at 6pm my another fren start wk den i told her i nw haven wake up pls do sth to wake me up.. slap me aso can den she make a cup of orange peach ice blended to drink den i told her still cant wk leh.. i stil cant wake up den she me a bowl of chicken soup wif lot of pepper n tobacco sauce.. wa.. it suppose to be sth er xin or hot 4 me to drink but i find it very nice den i make another bowl of soup to drink but tis tm i add slice chilli n lot of tobacco sauce in it... wa.. very shiok.. but i stomach pain aft tat.. mayb either too spicy or sour... den rch hm go toilet 2 tm mornin jus go 2 another tm..
haiz.. nw 1230pm le got to wk at 3 again. haiz.. hope later i can concentrate on my work.. dun knw y i nw so sad again.. nt again...nw playin kiss gdbye make me more sad .. i knw e whole song le cuz i everyday listen keep on repeatin e song on my mp3.. when i very sad i listen to sad song de..tis song mean alot to me..ya.. i finally understand sth... but it all too late le... e song represent hw i feelin nw n 4 e past few days... nw playin -ni ai wo hai shi ta...? haiz.. wa.. shit la today is e last day of e month have to do stock takin den hv to weight all e salt n pepper.. e tobacco sauce all those.. wth... i hate to do it..i goin to take my off day on every end of the month le... haiz... hurt.. sad... lonely de wo... living all alone in tis world of fear....
OUT oF BOuNd FOR gUYS .....
F... oFF man...haiz...............................
confuseme [7:23 PM]
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
haiz... lonely de wo.. [hardtOsaYimsOri]-Ai wO bui zhOu
wa.. shit man ytd i write my blog halfway den i fall aslp den i tink my sis off my com den nw mus rewrite lo...i write alot of things lo... wa.. dir le my sis knw tat i smoke den if she tel my mom den i die le lo... den abt e burn mark if she tel my mom den i fin le lo... wa... wth... den gd lo den there wil be no more abby in tis world...the best sia... den my idiot sis 4get to bring her hp den ask me bring her hp to sch 4 her again.. f lo..her sch at simei leh u tink very fun to go there ar... wth lo..
later im stil wkin e lo.. cant let me rest meh...
haiz.. nw is 735am...if tat things nv happen i nw will be on my way to mit sum1... but haiz... nth to say le.. ytd i woke up at 945am if my mom nv wake me up i will stil be slpin.. den i went to bath lo den pack my bag den pei my mom go eat breakfast.. when i was abt to leave 4 work my mom saw e cuts on my hands n ask y i cut n torture myself wan to die ar.. u askin me y i go cut n torture myself.. u shld ask urself abt it lo.. e 13 cuts on my hand is cause by u.. onli tat u dunno lo...U DUN EVEN KNW THE PAINS IM GOIN THRU nW n TAt TimE 13 FEB... tel u aso no use u wouldnt understand cuz u tink u r always rite... she aso saw e cigar burn mark.. i told her say i cookin tat tm e oil spilt den i burn my hands lo.. she dun believe she tot i go cut a hole on my hands.. crazy sia so er xin lo if i cut a hole on my hand.. i didnt expect e burn to be quite deep too.. nw stil pain,, but who knw my heart got a deep hole too.. tel any1 aso no use they aso wont understand de.. dun say they i myself aso dun understand myself..i dun even knw wat i wan in tis hell life of mine.. wat r my goals in life... i rather die better man.. my mom say e most important things to do nw is work hard n palan my career 4 my future n nt love... u dun nd ppl to love u meh.. dun u knw wat e feelin when u cant tel e sum1 tat u luv them... or tat u stil luv them.. or sum1 who luv u but u csnt be wif tat person cuz tat person is nt sum1 u luv in ur heart n u aso dun wan to hurt tat person.. it even painful if u cant get to c them or even knw hw r they gettin along.. u cant be there 4 them.. feel so useless n hlpless rite nw...haiz... i ytd smoke 5 sticks nw left wif 2 sticks nia... dunno whether to buy ma.. haiz.. anyw i already half dead smoke more die earlier.. so i goin to smoke si wo... anyway who cares..
lucky ytd nt so bz ytd so slack lo.. i doin cashier again.. den ard 5 plus edwin cm cuz he cm to check his schedule den aso waitin 4 me to end wk n send me hm lo.. as uaual he pei me bring my dog 4 a walk.. he lyk my father lyk tat.. i told him u look lyk my father leh can call u laopa ma.. he say i wan be ur laogong nt ur laopa.. i jus laugh lo.. ytd he say im e onli gal tat he nv knw he will cherish..he say le den i look away lo.. nth to say.. i knw he treat me gd all those but haiz.. dun wan say le.. [hurts] bleedin-teArs of mY HeaRT...-
haiz.. later got work at 3 i nw wanna go rest 4 awhile very tired sia.. workin until 11 again.. rch hm will be ard 1210 den aft bring august dwn 4 a walk will be 1 ba.. den do sum hsewk fin will be 130 ba.. haiz.. everyday lyk tis go on... sianZ...
miSsin eUU....dUn tell me U duNno taT iM still miSsin U..aS day gO by im miSsin u mOre n More....dunNo wheN i will have e cHance tO c U agaIn or tO be wif U agaiN..i wAitiN 4 taT day tAt u will cM bk to mY life agaIn..will taT day eveR cm..?i juS caNt fOrget ur pretTy faCe..uR cute sMile...ur Sweet smeLL..ur BeautifuL vOice...thE care N coNcern taT u hV shower on me...i cAnt fOrget e hUgs..thE kisses...the haPpy n saD time we been thru tOgether...evEn thoUgh we beeN tOgether fOR onlY a shOrt time..tiS memorieS is eNough tO lasT fOR a LIFE tiME...wHen iT all faLL apArt...i wiLL knOw deEp in my heArt...thE only tHing tAt mattEr haVE cm tRUE...In tiS life I waS luv by eUU...
confuseme [3:25 PM]
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
haiz.... sad de wo... nt agaiN..back to e past but worse...
heng ar.. almost late 4 work but nv... if i late den i wont hv my $50 allowance at e end of the month.. 1 min late aso consider..nw i wk full tm nt lyk last tm wk part tm can late 4 wk.. cuz mus set gd example as a senior staff over there.. wa.. when i reach pasta there already quite bz.. den i faster change den do outside 4 awhile den my manager ask me do cashier.. huh.. i hate doin cashier cuz if bz i will blurr de lo.. today damn bz i tok until i very thirsty sia.. no tm to even go dwn smoke.. hmm.. i cut dwn on smokin le frm 8 sticks to 5 stick.. mayb to 4 den 3 den slowly quit le.. i aso dunno y i go smoke sia in the first place.. oh i rem le cuz i very sad..haiz.. dun wan to tok abt it..[hurt] i last tm hate ppl who smoke de.. but cuz stress ma.. den go smoke.. haiz.. i nw feelin better le.. cuz bz wkin den no tm to tink too much wat has been done had been done.. aso cant turn bk e tm.. haiz.. later wkin at 12 den wk fin at 8pm..wa.. nw 330 le jus hang up e fone nt long.. she force me go slp cuz i wkin at 12...den lyk tat lo.. haha.. today my mom n sis cm pasta eat den later huiqin cm n eat aso.. den she cm dwn wif her fren aso..haa.. shock to c her cuz she actually at hougang hvin hairdressin course... ya.. den she cm to my counter to order..den i treat her fren eat choc mousse.. her fren quite cute la.. haa.. so funny... den today 9 plus le still so bz lo.. i so fed up cuz i cant do my closin den aft doin fin closin already is 1130.. den i take bys 80 den change to bus 70.. dot lo inside e bus 80 got 1 siao man keep touchin edwin hair den ed go shout at him den e bus ppl turn bk n c wat happen.. i so ps.. den ed keep starin at e man den i told him to stop him.. i tink if i nv stop him he will go punch e man le.. crazy sia..he pei me go my hse den acc me bring my dog dwn by tat tm already 1245 le.. den he leave at 110..siao wan him.. ask him go hm he dun wan.. haiz.. damn tired lo.. today wk non stop.. waitin 4 my off day.. i wan go kbox.. hmm.. go wif who..? dunno she free ma.. if free ask her go wif me if she nv wk.. she aso in macpherson de.. first year..haa.. ict course..ya lo... hmm i slpy le wan go orh orh le.. nw already is 345.. aeh,, my cigar burn mark damn pain nw..1 dry up le e other 3 ar.. haven.. sobz..
to al: whenu start to wk le dun tired urself too much n mus balance ur tm wif wkin n studies..tis year ur final year le mus do well den at least go poly.. anyw pls tc of urself.. nw we all lyk stranger lyk tat nw go bk to e tm when i dunno u well again,, haiz... lyk tat lo... sad.. cant hv fun tgt lyk last tm le.. tc...n becareful..
to jo.. erm hw to pass u e dairy ar..? i put in al letter box den she pass to u lo..k..?
nyw tc.. haiz.. nth to say le...
so sick of life..aiya i go slp le..4am le.. another bz day.. haiz....=( tired lyk shit..
confuseme [11:23 AM]
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Friday, February 24, 2006
dotz lo...
i send wat or to who de i wont knw meh... mon i jus got bk my hp i aso nv send much sms.. den tue i aso nv send much sms den tue nite my hp kanna confiscate le.. den wed i go buy hi card.. i rem i first msg u is ask u take care den abby here mus go eat hor n all e best 4 ur hairstylist course ar... n becarefull too..?? den to al i send de is diff things ma..i stil can rem wat i send lo... since when i send 2 same de msg worx... diao lo.. i so innocent..n sum more i use samsung hp on wed..??? u tat nite tel me dare to do it dare to admit it den u leh tel ur mom a diff things den becm say wat i siao ar.. anyhw go shout at u when i cannt mit u.. i shout at u lyk mad ppl.. since when..? no wonder alot ppl say they dun trust u.. ask urself wat u do la.. even though they say u all those i stil trust u lo..didnt expect u reali is lyk tat.. no offence wor... i send 2 e same msg got proof.. i 2 timer ar..? haa.. dun make me laugh leh..
reali dun wanna quarrel wif u.. jus wan to clear my name.. nth to say le... n jus wan to tel u i hlp u return ur storybk le ytd... tc...
to al: jus wanna ask u to tc of urself n dun make urself too stress or sad le.. ya.. there stil alot of ppl who care alot abt u.. there jo to make u happy... me ar.. i dun dare to.. i scare i wil hai le u.. reali feel damn bad for all tat happening... dun do foolish thing or tink too much.. i trust tat u wont do it le rite...?take care k.. god bless u...
haiz.. shit nw 1pm le.. goin to be late 4 wk le.. haiz..wk 3 to 11 again.. tml wk 12 to 8 den mon to thur wk 3 to 11.. fri off day.. sat sun wk 10 to 6.. wa.. dyin soon.. if can die i aso wan.. den livin in tis hell of my life.. sick sia..
kiss gdbye...
baby pls stop cryin
tis tm seem so familar
holdin on to ur hand dun bear to let go..
everytm i wan to open my mouth to speak but tink is better to keep silent..
can gv me 1 more min to look at u carefully to rem/appreciate ur beauty
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e luv i gv u i cant 4get stil own u de i cant gv u...??
pls dun take my heart away to be wif sum1 else...??
chorus...
i roughly tranlet.. gtg wk le.. no tm le.. nw den i understand wat e songs is abt cuz i feel it too.. haiz..
confuseme [8:46 PM]
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
haa... wat a gd story teller...
wa.. i didnt knw there is such a gd story teller sia make up all e story until so true sia.. i cant be bother sia.. im glad tat all those things happen if nt i will nt even knw wat r ur true color sia.. i guess wat other say abt sum1 is true ba...got nth to say abt it... very gd lo.. everyth push to me to blame.. ya lo i so stupid de wat... do all those things in e end wat happen.. wa.. cant believe sia.. reali damn fantastic... huh...say i shout at ppl.. diao.. no matter hw angry i m i aso wont shout at fren de lo.. even if my fren shout at me.. dotz..? n i send both msg e same..? wa... i aso didnt knw sia... funny...haa.. hmm.....
so i guess i goin bk to my old abby le.. e old self abby is bk but stronger..?dun wanna care abt anyth.. ytd ed pei me go to simei ite to pass my sis stuff den he eat lunch at there lo.. i c him eat dun feel lyk eatin...my sis buy drinks 4 me den i drink lo... den aft wait 4 his god bro to dismis den we took a bus to tampines interchange den took bus 65 to bugis lo alight at e temple there den walk to bugis lo..while walkin to bugis i walk pass ice monster den i feel lyk eatin... den he say he treat me lo.. ha..we eatmix fruit de.. but i still perfer all mango de.. today goin dwn again to eat... he cmin to mit me later... hmm... ytd wk quite fun la.. one new gal so i look fierce den didnt dare to tok to me.. diao.. i look fierce..? no la.. i ytd no mood ma tat y i nv reali tok much.. but until at 6 a gal aso frm macpherson de cm to wk den we chat n joke ard.. so funny.. wa.. ytd is pasta mania macpherson day worx.. ytd all e crew who wk is frm macpherson sia.. there got me,edwin,chester, n sharon lo... ytd quite bz la.. but im luvin it...
life nw been ok la... not much worries got more tm 4 myself to do my stuff..n slp lo.. got sum1 who reali care 4 me... i knw i hurt u 4 3 month n yet u still by my side... haiz.. feel so bad... wat so gd abt me anyway.. im such an idiot n sum more so stupid de n sum1 who bluff ppl feelin.. who go ard disturbin ppl worx.. im tat kind of person leh.. go backstab ppl worx... haa.. nt true wan aso say until so true worx... ya lo im tat kind of ppl leh..so mus be becareful.. nw sum1 very happy le hor make until everyth lyk tat... u very gd...but y..?
[[HurtS]]feel very hurt n sad rite nw dunno y.. aft i listen to shan hu hai... wa..heart very pain.. tis tm de very pain... i been hurt alot of tm but tis tm is de worst i dunno take hw long den can heal.. mayb nv.. wa... nw playin kiss gdbye... heart more pain sia.. all e memories hv been kept in my heart very deeply... all e tm we had tgt..it cant be 4gotten de... i ytd at wk hear tis song i totally no mood almost cry but lucky nv.. haiz.. feel so hurts... i try to 4get everyth but i jus cant..wat to do.. all e memories since i mit u jus cant be 4gotten it jus stay there in my mind.. e msgs n everyth... wa.. nw playin hei se mao yi...haiz.. e smile on my face had gone.. u say u will take away my fan nao de.. u say u wil fen xiang when i sad n u wil make me smile...? ya.. u did but onli 4 a short tm.. jus cant 4get e tm we spend tgt.. i dun knw it real or jus a dream.. it seem lyk a dream to me cuz all my happiness it jus disappear away so quickly.. y everytm is u loss sth den u knw hw much tat things meant to u.. i tink i will regret it -all my life - haiz.. memories of u n me will alway be keep in my heart even though it hurt alot... e happiest days all my life had jus vanish on tat day......... i dun mind u hurtin me but i dunno wat im doin on tat day if i nv do those things...... haiz.. hUrts.... tryin hard to 4get...UMI<<<<i reali dunno to hate u or wat sia...im kind of angry but haiz.... nvm ba... i dunno if u hv or nv take it seriously but it did make a big impact in my life... haiz.. take carez..
confuseme [2:41 PM]
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
haiz...
so i guess we r nt even fren anymore.. ya..im e one who go disturb ur.. n get ur into alot of problem n trouble.. all is my fault.. sori to al n jovern.. if u wan to say i bluff ur den i hv nth to say le... but i knw i nv.. haiz.. i dunno y things will turn up tis way i aso nv say ur go disturb me de..is my mom who dwn there keep sayin ur disturb me n is nt lo..ya im e one who find ur..nt ur... haiz.. reali dunno la....i reali dun wan things to turn up tis way.. n izzit it all my fault..? wat did i done to make things turn up tis way..? sori to al tat my mom keep msgin u to ask me my whereabt n say u abt my hp bill.. but it entirely all my fault.. im e one who msg u first..i did tell her.. but she jus keep blaming u.. jus cuz she take my hp n c all e msg tat y tis things happen shld hv deleted all ur msg.. but nw it all too late.. everyth nw is all my fault le.. i bluff ur de feelin aso my fault..but did i? m i tat kind of fuckin idiot ppl.. who go round hurtin ppl... n keep disturbin ppl.. haiz..y..?i reali dunno wat i done...
confuseme [5:09 PM]
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nw wat again... everyth is my fault again..wat i do sia...
i dun understand lo.. wat i do sia.. i reali dun understand.. i nv bluff u 2 at all lo... y everyth will turn up to be lyk tat... al..i nv treat u as spare tyre..y say me until lyk tat...im nt tat kind of idiot person lo.. wat i say to u is e truth..is reali frm e bottom of my heart lo.. i nv treat it as a joke lo...n i nv wan to hurt u n c u sad n tat true.. as i already say.. my feelin 4 jo hv change aft ytd wat she told u.. ya is true i luv her but nt anymore aft ytd..n wat i say to u today is e truth.. cuz i knw jo luv u more than me.. n there no point to continue n i waitin 4 it to happen..n it did but i nv expect it to be in tis way.. n it turn up to be my fault... jo get it straight u r e one who is bluffin me n nt i bluffin u lo... u jus nw say u say u lyk al onli ma.. i knw tat if u got e chance to be wif her u will go 4 it cuz u still do luv her..u aso say she dunno abt us...n i aso nv say u anyth lo..n wat u tel al abt me.. dun anyhw add things leh.. pls la.. wat u wan..? when we seperate i aso nv ka ur lan jiao wei leh.. i say u wat sia.. wth lo... i got say u anyth meh...wat i say to u in e msg was in e past n nt nw lo...read carefully....!!! al.. i reali nv lie to u or joke wif u.. i dun find it as a joke... it e truth!! hw den u will believe me.. wat reali is e whole story...haiz.. completely no mood....wth lo.. wat i do sia...n i tink i knw wat is e misunderstandin behind.. wat i say to jo is e day b4 she told u abt all those things... aft ytd which is 21/2 my feelin 4 jo is nt there anymore... n today which is 22/2 when i told u all those things is frm e bottom of my heart.. i reali dun wanna c u sad or hurt... haiz...i dunno hw to explain to u but reali wat i say is e truth...gal im sori if u tink i lie to u or joke wif u...which i NV...!!! pls gv me a chance to explain myself...
confuseme [9:25 AM]
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
wth lo.. fuck la...
wa lau..didnt knw i will hv such an idiotic mother sia.. go anyhw call my fren n scold 4 wat sia.. izzit becuz u hv no fren or wat den wan make me hv no fren.. no freedom no life sia..she aso innocent lo... call her scold le den keep callin 4 wat sia..u out of ur mind le or wat.. wth lo.. fuck off of my stuff la.. everyth is all ur fault u r the one who make me change to who i m n nt my fren lo..izzit u wan me to die den u happy.. if tat is e case.. im fine wif it.. i rather die than u call her n scold.. i will get even wif u one day.. haiz.. wth.. damn fed up rite nw... i hate u.. wana run away frm hm n nv cm bk... dun wan to c u.. everytm i at hm u keep scoldin n naggin...i where got wan to stay at hm sia.. i wanna cm hm late cuz i dun wan to c u.. u nv gv me a peace of mind at all.. jus wait n c...!!!!!to al.. haiz.. i reali sori abt wat happen. she jus take my hp ytd n call u n scold.. i aso dun knw y she go call u 4 wat sia.. haiz.. feel so bad.. it my fault to make u get scoldin 4 nth.. u so innocent lo.. wth.. hw in e world i wil hv such a mother sia.. so unreasonable de..so idiotic de.. gal.. im reali sori k.. i wont let her cal u anymore.. if she ever do it again..c wat i will do... haiz.. anyw i dun hv hp le.. she keep it again mayb will nv return.. tat her problem.. i goin to buy a hi card soon... better still den she cant contact me..den i die or wat she aso wont knw....haiz... so so so sori....i make u sad again.. nt again.. haiz...haiz.. reali no mood at all.. i knw sth but dun wanna say i wait 4 it to happen den say ba.. haiz.. my heart nw is into 2... but nvm...i understand y too.. i aso knw im a failure in everyth de.. in relationship or wkin.... e end result will alway be e same no matter hw hard i try.. i reali try very hard le... but i jus cant... haizzz.... anyw who care man.. mayb it my retribution ba.. hv nth to say.. i cant do anyth aso... jus hv me to blame... if hv anyth pls tell me k.. dun keep it frm me... i been hurt until my heart nw is numb le.. dun reali can feel anyth.. mayb my life is lyk tat de..esp in relationship.. but i reali try very hard le..haiz... feel so sad n hurt.... im a failure... always a failure n 4ever will be... i hate myself n my life.. HAIZ... nth to say le.. bleedin inside...
confuseme [3:01 PM]
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Monday, February 20, 2006
slackin my time away.....
haiz.. i hv been fire frm my job le.. wanna knw y..?
cuz i took an mc on tue...n they tot i purposely take mc de cuz i wan to celebrate valentine day..is nt lo.. is i reali no mood to wk.. cuz sth happen on mon nite..n i aso reali nt feelin well lo... den they say wan to terminate my contract,,, but nvm they gv me a chance.. den i wed late 4 wk 4 half an hour.. den reali is kanna fire le.. nw noo job lo.. but i ytd jus went to pasta mania to sign e paper so im goin to wk full tm there... but hor aso cant be late lo... my manager say cannt late 4 more than 2 tm...haiz.. i alway late de hw sia....haiz.. reali dun feel lyk wkin there sia.. im been wkin there 4 1 year plus le.. but mayb i wk full tm i will learn more things.. i will try my best to do well too.. i wan to take a F&B managnment course... haha.. i wanna to be a manager n nt jus a crew...sick of tired of being sum1 small... if i believe im sure i can de.... nw i tink i got e tm to go 4 courses aT Nitez ba... my wkin hour will be lyk either 10 to 6pm or 3 to 11pm... hmm.. ya lo.. got 2 day or 1 day off... depend lo.. i tot i dun hv to wk there le.. in e end aso goin bk there to wk... sianz,.. but nvm.. better than wkin at crosscom... omg.. i can die there sia...
my life nw is so i dunno wat to say but im confuse... hv nth to say le.. i will be startin wk on 23 feb at pasta mania... omG....nt again......
hEy iM a chAnge ABby... nO moRE e aBby u knw... chanGe 4 e BetteR or e wOrse u fInd ouT urself... Cuz i MyseLf asO dUNNo... i wanNA be there 4 u lyk no1 else...i wanna be sum1 who u can always replied on...i wanna be sum1 who can always put a smile on ur face...i wanna be sum1 who can take away all ur problems..i wanna to be sum1 who u will luv..i will nv wan to hurt ur heart...i wan to bring u happiness...i wan to c ur smiles everyday...n i aso wish to be wif u 4ever...i nv wanna leave u..n dun ever leave me too...jus wanna to tell u i luv u...
confuseme [5:10 PM]
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Thursday, February 09, 2006
feel so lost without u.....
brayan adams- everyth i do(i do it for u)
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin'
for I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way
Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin'
for I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true Everything I do - I do it for you
tis song quite meaningful... im so loss rite nw so listenin to tis song lo... haiz.. tat sum1 ar go dunno go do wat to her hand again..haiz.. dunno wat to say le.. jus feel so... i reali dunno hw i feel rite nw aso.. so damn confuse.. feel lyk dyin.. no mood at all.. i cant help her in any way or wat aso.. sori didnt hv tm to call u or wat cuz wkin.. hate my life man.. hv to wk so long hour.. no life man.. cant c u.. haiz.. worst is i cant be there 4 u.. i reali wan to be there 4 u if u nd me..pls let me knw if u hv pro..u dun say hw i knw.. i wan to share the burden wif u.. reali dun wanna c u look sad or hurt or stress.. sit man.. i didnt knw my .......... so sharp..ouch.... nvm.. tis pain cant compare the pain n hurt i feel in my heart.... haiz.. hw m i goin to wk later.. i hv t wk 4 10 hour.. hw can i put my mind at peace when i c u in tis state.. arh... feel lyk dyin... reali wan to mit u nw but i dunno u stil slpin ma.. nw is 8.05am le... tm pass very fast.. later im goin to wk le.. sianz.. damn sad nw... dunno y i so in luv wif u.. mayb u r so diff frm other.. ijus onli knw tat u r the 1 who make me move on wif my life once again...to c tat e world is still colourful de... haiz.. u wakeup le den u nw on the way to sch 4 duty le.. so sad cant c u today.. haiz.. my life at wk today goin to be hell... dunno y suddenly mis u so much nw.. haiz... nth to say le.. no mood le.. so i end here...
confuseme [3:34 PM]
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
haha.. funny day...
hmm.. ytd i hv my off day...mornin i stay at hm online.. try to contact jovern but cant so i went to slp lo...actually wan go tampines mall buy things de but at last aso nv go le.. hmm.. hope the things stil hv... den at last jovern call me at ard 11am ba.. den i ask her can acc me go tampines mall ma she dun tink can.. den so i go mit her at her hse area den c hw lo.. so i went to mit her at blk 609 den she went to take money frm her parent to eat lunch we went mac to eat.. haha.. aft tat u bring me go c where u cut ur hair de but ytd close so jo bring me go another salon tat her fren go.. i took so long to decide whether to cut or nt but at last i wen to cut.. hmm,, jo n me chose e same hairstyles sia.. haha.. den aft cut hair den go to her hse lo.. aiya... im tired le.. tml den continue update or wat.. hmm..?
confuseme [10:16 AM]
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
U and u and Onli u in my heart rite nw...
hmm.. been wkin 4 2 days le.. erm.. wkin there quite interestin la.. onli tat im too tired le.. haven been slpin much lately... actually very tired de but in e end online until very late.. opps.. sum1 goin to kill me le... sori k..
haiz.. valentine day cmin le so sad i cant take off on tat day... reali damn sad lo... i plan wat to do le but nw.. haiz..wan to cry le..hmm.. later goin to tampines mall to buy things 4 sum1.. haha...actually nt reali sure wat to buy...hmm..? anyw hope u will lyk it...
haiz.. hw i reali wish i could be wif tat sum1... we will be happy tgt doin e things tat we lyk.. goin to the beach to watch sunset or sunrise...tok under e moonlight... hug ,kiss... haha.. tink too much le ba.. den can be tgt happily... wif no quarrel.. i hv my freedom.. u hv ur freedom... we in our world wif no1 to interfer...haha.. hw nice.. im dreamin rite.. haiz... if tat day will reali happen i will becm happy until siao de...haha..but haiz.. im dreamin onli la...
erm.. i tink i better go slp le.. nw is 2.34pm.. i tired le.. tm to or or le... hmm...?
confuseme [10:17 AM]
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
startiN afrEsh..hmm..?
haha.. i nw listenin to sylvester sim e shuo yi.. tis song aso very meaningful.. haiz.. e chrous is wat i reali wan to tel u... i keep everyth to myself cuz i dun wan u to worry n dun wan to c u stress.. if u r sad u knw hw unhappy i was ma.. if u sad i aso wil be very sad n stress de.. reali onli wan to c u
happy...=p the chorus meaning is sth lyk tat worx...
all i knw is i jus wan to c u
happy... i willing to do anyth jus to get close to u.. i jus keep everyth to myself cuz i jus wan u to be
happy.. i knw tat i will suffer n be very sad but i everyth aso willing.. dun care where u r even it is raining heavily
i will be there 4 u...
ya.. so the meaning of the song is sth lyk tat... but it reali nt jus a song tat i lyk it e things tat i wanted to tell u.. hmm.. haha.. i tink u slp liao cuz msg u nv reply.. but nvm cuz i knw u r tired.. i jus drink a cup of coffee so nt slpin yet.. hmm.. nw listenin to only luv by trademark... haiz..tis song i wan to dedicate to u worx.. pls listen to e lyrics carefully...=) wa.. so fast ar.. nw 3.05am le.. haiz.. later startin my new job at suntec le haiz.. wkin frm 12 to 930pm worx.. hmm so i onli got 1 hour plus to slp cuz later my mom wake me up at 5am hlp her do tis n tat... wk tat tm sure fall aslp again.. haha...i jus make another cup of coffee worx.. nw listenin to may i luv u by dunno who leh.. haha.. aso another song i wan to dedicate to u... e chorus is wat i wan to ask u worx.. haha... but i dun wan stress u so i nt goin to ask le..i already told u le... i dun care whether can stead wif u or wat i jus wan u to happy.. dun be stress worx...heez.. u stress i will be stress de.. u jump i jump...u sad i aso will be sad.. u r hurt i aso will feel very hurt de... kk.. so dun be stress.. anyth can jus tel me de.. i dun wan u to keep everyth to urself.. i wan to knw everyth abt u.. haha..huh.. nw 3.30am le...so fast lo...
to my ex.. (xiaojac)
wait b4 i go i wan to tel my ex sth at here... if u got read den gd lo.. if dun hv den i dunno le...
i jus wan to tel u i dun wan to go bk to e past le.. too hurtful le.. i will nv 4get tat u scold me vulgar 4 no reason n u hurt me very deeply even though i 4gv u.. we nw is jus fren....i knw i did hurt u once... but u hurt me 3 times bk... i nv own u anyth le.. i did gv u chance n chance but u didnt cherish but u hurt me.. n u make me lost mich as my fren.. we nw nt even fren lo.. y mus u go tel her i lyk hw many ppl or wat..go say abt me wat thing i aso dunno... i did scarified my alot of tm 4 u.. i did care alot 4 u but u say i nv... i hv nth to say le... as u knw i nw onli hv tat one n onli person in my heart nw n no1 else le... no1 can replace tat sum1 in my heart nw..im sori to say all tis..hope we stil can be fren.. take care...
confuseme [10:39 AM]
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onlY loVe... by trademark..
hmm... i find tat tis lyrics very meaningful.. it jus wat i wanted to tell u... i tink u knw who u r... listen to the song n lyrics.... reali jus wanna u to be hApPy.... nw is 2.29am worx n jus rain fin.. haha.. dotz..
"Only Love"
2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be You're asking me
But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do
In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust
[Chorus]
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye
confuseme [10:17 AM]
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Thursday, February 02, 2006
haiz.. stress.. dunno wat im doin....
haiyo.. nw tokin to tat sum1 lo.. everytm slp so late de...ask her go slp she keep sayin nt tired de.. aiyo.. den she hor everytm stomach pain de dunno y..?
haiz..dunno la n sum more onli eat sweets nia...haiz... nth to say abt her.. sobz...
n hor y u go cut 13 lines sia.. aiyo.. dun ever do it again hor...haiz...
i wk at 10 lo..den end wk at abt 6 lyk tat den acc my manager go seiyu buy things den go mit sum1 lo..haha...happy sia.. heez...den shop 4 awhile den take mrt hm lo..rch hm abt 830pm den mother got nag lo..but i nv reali go listen.. so noisy sia.. jus haven step inside e hse got techno le.... haiz....
haiz.. me ar.. i dun reali knw wat reali happen to me.. been very dwn since i suspect sth...
i toward tis kind of things i very sensitive de...cuz i been thru b4 ma...den on wed b4 go mit jo tat tm i went to 7-eleven buy e thirtythree drink lo.. drinks quite fast den my whole face damn red sia...den abit headache den went to jo hse lay dwn cuz head pain..
aft 4 abt 1 hour im alrite le.. den it tm to go out mit sum1 in sch....den jo sk me stil wan drink beer ma...i say i wan den i take n drink lo.. n i aso ask her can gv me cigar ma.. i wan smoke cuz too stress le.. haiz.. reali no mood n very sad lo... haiz.. y im such a failure in luv de.. haiz...damn sad..haiz.. reali dunno wat u tinkin.. jus wish tat i will knw.. i wan to c u happy can liao...i dun wan to c u stress or sad lo.. it pain me to c u sad.. but i still dun understand sth,, y dun tell me leh..?
im alrite de as long as u find sum1 u lyk n be happy wif.. although it wil pain me i reali dun mind... den i dun knw wat happen ytd la...???
stil wonderin i still got the chance to be wif u ma..haiz..reali dun wan to tink too much lo.. haiz.. but cant hlp it.. keep tinkin abt tis n tat... very fan sia....
dyin soon...haiz.. abby is dead...!!!!
haiz.. sad... im missin u nw.. reali hope u will gv me e chance..?haiz....arh.. i goin mad le soon...
still waitin patiently.... haiz..
i tink i better go slp le...nw is goin to 3am le... opps...
confuseme [9:57 AM]
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