Friday, March 31, 2006
haiz.. sianz...
wth lo.. my off day so hv to go my mom office.. haiz.. sianz.. nw 2pm le hv to rch her office at 3pm dun care i delay tm.. jus came bk hm.. today went to sch..find her.. haa.. den aso went to find sw teacher.. wa lau huiqin go tell mr chan i smoke all those.. i dunno wat she tell him sum more la.. tis type of things go tell 4 wat sia.. bad impression sia..frm gd to worse.. aiya.. dun care la.. today is my last day to smoke n it gonna to be.. i promise her i wont smoke le.. i ask her to hlp me..den frm sch there take bus 80 to hougang..wa lau so sway sia.. goin to rch interchange tat tm got bus inspector sia.. i put 90 cent onli den he say go hougang nd $1.30 den i hv to pay 90cent more lo.. wth.. nvm la.. den she pei me go eat.. i so long nv eat mac le den go hougang mall e mac to eat lo.. so funny lo..i first tm msg her is on e her great grandmother passed away den ytd is e 100 days aft her great grandmom death.. so today is e 101 days i knw her.. e first tm i mit her is at cck e mac.. den aft 100 days later aso eat at mac again..so funny sia.. mus go buy 4D... i didnt knw between tis 101 days many things had happen lo.. many sad n happy memories.. overall is very sad memories.. haiz.. damn sad..haiz.. y my life lyk tat.. i can understand hw sum1 feel rite nw.. very difficult to 4get e lo.. but e more u tink e worse it get.. but jus cant hlp myself frm tinkin.. i can onli stop tinkin until i found my happiness... happiness.. haa..nt easy to find lo..it take 2 hands to clap so if one is wkin e other nt aso no use u onli can slap urself lo.. lyk wat im doin nw lo.. slapin bk at myself 4 all those stupid things i hv done.. reali damn stupid n idiot of me.. sum1 call me an idiot.. ya.. i admit i m.. i used to tink i very gd wan wun hurt ppl or wat.. nw tink im very bad wan..im a idiot who go hurt ppl.. i dun wan de lo.. aso dunno wat im doin.. tinkin bk all those i hv done.. so foolish n idiot of me.. i reali regret.. so i hv to live my life wif all those regrets.. i deserve it wan.. dun tok abt it le.. got to move on wif my idiotic life lo... wk wk n wk...tat all i can do nw.. next wed goin sentosa...haa.. company dinner n dance..sianz.. i go in early sun tan first..
wa.. i hv a very nice dream i dream of geraldine sia.. omg.. i aso dunno y will dream of her sia.. i dream tat i saw her den i go ask her 4 her hp no. haa.. den she gv lo.. so funny.. i tot it was real sia.. cuz it was so real lo.. den i wake up in e mornin onli jus to find out tat it was jus a dream.. but a very nice dream.. i msg sum1 swt dream.. but i got swt dream.. haa.. so so nice dream... i crazy sia...
haiz.. nw got to go do hsewk le lo den hv to go my mom office.. sianz lo.. wth...cant blog le.. sat n sun cant use com.. but mon i will be bk..
to sum1- jus hope u can live on happily..dun tink much le.. jus wanna wish u all e best in everyth tat u do... im always here 4 u de.. but if u let me to hlp onli.. u will nv be 4gotten...take cae.. i reali miss u alot.. hope to c u one day again.. waitin 4 tat day to cm.. take care when u wk too..your truely.....jayston....
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Thursday, March 30, 2006
wO bu minG bai.....
haiz.. ytd ar.. happen nth much lo.. break tm my fren acc me eat lo.. den ytd almost late aso lo.. rch pasta already 2.59.. den faster go change den go punch card lo.. punch in tat tm stil 2.59 lo.. haa.. but hor e day b4 nv punch out den hv to deduct 2 hr pay lo.. deduct lo.. no mood to care.. haiz.. ytd nite wait 4 her to call me but wait until almost 3 nv call den i go slp lo.. ytd her bday... she went out wif her fren.. been tryin to contact her onli ytd den can get her.. i aso cant go out wif her.. wkin ma.. den mayb next week bring her out lo.. nv buy her anyth..no money le..im so broke.. ytd my manager scare me to death lo.. she say my cash short of $13..but actually is she key in e customer order but haven pay yet la.. so short of 80cent lo..i left wif $2 so can pay la.. haa.. nw goin to wk le.. wkin frm 12 to 8 tonite.. den i ask y i wk frm 12 to 8.. she say cuz gt no senior ard.. dotz.. i nwadays do things blurr blurr wan.. nv concentrate at all dunno y.. jus cant concentrate.. who m i tinkin abt.. who m i missin.. i dunno.. haiz.. so sad.. jus sad.. aiya..2 more days to quit smokin.. today n tml can smoke nia.. den i will nv touch le.. i hope i can quit lo.. nt again stomach pain again.. always lyk tat eat too much chilli le i guess.. gtg wk le.. sianz.. findin another part tm job who can intro...
i wan to wk si wo.. so fan lo.. i aso dunno wat i fan abt.. crazy de wo.. haiz.. wat m i tinkin again.. keep tinkin abt e past when im alone.. haiz.. so fan.. where r u.. i nd u bk in my life again.. pls dun leave me.. im sori.. can gv me one more chance.. waitin 4 u..........
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
haiz...pain-can u feel it...
i jus cut a pain on my hand.. ya.. it pain... i can feel it.. i aso dunno y i go cut myself.. for fun ba.. haiz..ytd mit my fren at ice monster..when im nt in e mood i will go there to eat.. i feel much better aft goin there...den when i was abt to go to wk my manager call me to go funan pasta take foam cup as our stall dun hv liao.. den i frm bugis walk there lo.. got fren acc me ma.. haa.. so funny.. my 2 fren keep fightin n keep fallin on e floor.. they lyk e floor so much sia.. den aft take le go bk wk lo..but late le.. but nvm got excuse ma.. den when my break tm they acc me eat lo.. haa.. i eat chicken mushroom.. omg it so so nice wif lot of chilli.. den aft eat i go bk to wk lo.. they hlp me find singin sch..it cost $285 4 12 lesson if there 3 ppl in a group.. but if solo it cost $325.. omg.. it so ex lo.. i tell my mom abt it le.. she say c hw lo.. c got enough money ma.. den i hope hv la... i wanted to learn.. who wan join me.. haiz.. sum body got problem but i cant hlp much.. dunno wat happen to e mother sia.. go kick her own daughter out of the hse.. crazy sia.. den she aso no money hw she survive.. haiz.. wat can i do to hlp.. i wish i hv e money to gv her..but i nw reali dun hv le.. im broke.. she cm 4 pasta mania interview she cm interview b4 but nv get i tink but nw is a different thing ma.. i intro de.. my manager ask me she can wk ma.. i say can.. but i c e way she tok when interview i wan to laugh sia.. reali gt attitude sia.. hope when she serve customer better dun lyk tat if nt i kanna by my manager sia.. haa.. but i tink she can de la.. i train her lo.. haa.. so funny..omg.. they no money eat den cm pasta ask me treat them.. i aso broke le.. den i ask edwin pay 4 them.. he aso broke le.. his bank left $20 nia.. i intro them eat spicy chicken but wif less chilli lo...haa.. den aft tat they rushin to watch movie at bedok.. c them so happy im happy 4 her.. but nw her tis state.. haiz..sad sia.. i hope i can be there 4 her to hlp her but i cant do much.. jus hope everyth will be rite 4 her again.. i tot i can bring her happiness but i nv.. in e end i still haiz.. dunno la.. wat im doin sia... reali wan her to hv a gd life.. to c her happy can le.. i nw wan save money.. save 4 my future lo.. i wan to hv my own net card... i knw i can apply but cant let my mom knw la... dunno wat to say le..
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
??????
caN sumOne pls TeLL me waT i reAli wanT..
wHo i tRuelY luv..
waT i hv tO do nOw..
tO wait or juS carrY On..
i reAlli verY confUse now..
dunNo even knw waT to dO sia..
i hate myseLf aLot..
n thks 4 fren tat stil cAre 4 me..
i reali appreciate.....
haiz.....
i luv whO sia....
until today i still dunno sia...
too much memories on my mind le...
y cant i jus forget....
y mus i suffer until lyk tat.....
y cant the pain jus go away....
i reali cant take it anymore le...
buT i reAli do wish i can find sum1 who i truely luv..
n sum1 who truely luv me too...
n i do wish tat i caN be wif tat sum1 4ever...
n i will promise nv to hurt or make u sad...
n i will hv all e time jus 4 euu....
who can tat sum1 be...
still waitin.........................
i wish.................................
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haa.. funny sia...i run lyk mad ppl...
i ytd almost late 4 wk lo.. i take mrt rch bugis is abt 9.58 le den i frm mrt station run to pasta lo.. den faster punch in my card..haa..guess wat..im nt late lo.. im on tm.. i run lyk crazy sia.. omg..damn tired lo...den i start doin my openin lo.. arh..they cut my fringe sia..which i leave 4 2 mth.. nw becm so short le.. i 4get to tell her nt to cut.. haiz.. nw haiz.. i so sad sia.. haiz.. wat to do.. alrdy cut le.. stupid sia.. my hair 4ever cant mess de.. put clay aso nt strong de.. i dun lyk to put alot la..my mom say next week she buy 4 me de clay at jean yip de cost abt $20 plus.. haa..
y ar e song tat i repeat keep listenin is e song geraldine sing.. haa.. i didnt knw she got sing zhen shi.. zhu wo sheng ri kai le is e day b4 she sing i keep listenin de... mayb i can guess wat e next song she will sing.. my blog de song lo.. haa.. no la.. i dunno la... mayb lo..nth to say le..
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Monday, March 27, 2006
haa..im crazy again....
so long nv blog le cuz cant use com ma.. at last today is mon again den i can use com 4 awhile cuz im wkin at 10..goin out soon..e past few days happen alot of thing la.. but overall i is very happy..onli sum ppl make me so mad lo..ok..tok abt fri.. i was wkin den tat fellow msg me wher r u.. i say i wkin lo..den i ask y.. she say tot can hv lunch wif me b4 she go wk..den i nv reply her msg le den she send me another msg which make me so mad lo.. she say wat lucky she nv accept me..she say i din knw u will wif jac n jo b4..she say i got label problem sia..so wat if i hv..tat aso ur problem men..u aso dunno me well cm n say me 4 wat.. tell me la.. wat u knw abt me..i knw u say i flirt too.. aiya.. say all u wan la.. i actually very happy wkin de.. jus becuz of tat one msg make me so hot..so aft lunch crowd i went dwn to smoke...i smoke 2 sticks den tokin on e fone wif jo lo.. den aft smoke fin go bk to wk den i saw ah bee.. frm macpherson de.. haa.. nv saw her when she order if nt can gv her discount.. we actually dunno each other de but in sch everytm saw each other den i ask her u frm mac de ar she say yes.. she say she knw me.. haa.. of cuz will knw me la.. i so famous.. haa.. i so BHB.. bo la.. i everytm run run run..sure can c me at e track almost everyday de.. or at e gym..so miss sch life lo..nvm im goin bk to study next year...hmm.. den fri nite my sec sch fren cm pasta mania to eat.. den i c them look familar ma.. den i ask them u frm kcp ar.. they say ar.. they say they 4get my name le.. haa..funny sia..they frm express clz de..c la.. i in sec sch aso everytm run until they knw me le.. haa... i so BHB...i miss RUNNINg.... fri c alot of my fren so happy.. den sat n sun nth much la... sat while mitin my mom n my aunt at suntec i saw sum1 but she nv even say a hi or wat so fine lo.. since u wan it tis way den so be it.. i aso nv say u anyth lo.. i was jus tellin u i was so pissed off lo.. nt u take wan i say de person aso nt u u so angry 4 wat sia.. unless is u la.. i dun wan to tok abt it le.. haha.. i ytd went to cut hair.. i mit my mom at bishan de jean yip... den i aso hv my haircut my mom cut n dye her hair.. den my sis ar.. omg lo ... she go perm her hair..haa.. so funny.. den my stead leh he jus hv his haircut last wed.. my stead is my dog la.. haha.. jkin la..omg.. i din knw e manager last day ytd if nt i get his hp no. le.. he so cute lo.. haha..he is a manager but he is a chef de manager.. he wkin at cine de pasta mania.. my off day i sure go dwn find him de.. haiz.. y he lasy day ytd..he attact to bugis 4 a week or 2 nia..hope can c him aso.. i find him cute n cool sia.. his hair damn messy.. he is tall but he hv a bunny teeth... haa.. i ask edwin hlp me find out his hp no. edwin face change sia.. haa...nvm make fren onli ma.. dun jealous.. hmm...he sOo cUte lo.. cant 4get his face.. i tink he is abt 20 plus ba.. 23 or 25 lyk tat... hmm...i gtg wk le.. i blog tml cuz im wkin at 3... haa... sianz.. wkin again
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Friday, March 24, 2006
haiz..yet another boring day
i change song again.. dunno la. tis few day very sian... haa.. ytd was fun.. but i got e shock of my life.. sum1 la..suddenly appear.. almost got heart attack lo.. reali lo.. my heart stop 4 awhile den later beat very fast.. dunno y.. haa.. den bk to normal le.. i stun there 4 abt 1 min.. den my manager dwn there say wat happen sia.. y my face blurr blurr wan.. haa.. i was tinkin will i ever c u again aft tat day..haa..dun tok abt tat day le.. my bball so omg..nth to say.. den u suddenly appear of cuz i got no tm to react la...nt i dao.. aft u walk away den i knw wat had jus happen.. haa.. so funny.. omg.. thks 4 scaring me.. haa.. my blog song got problem.. nvm.. put tis song first.. no tm to find song to put..actually put first tm by GL but cant wk leh.. sianz..omg.. wed i saw a guy lo.. he so cute lo.. i keep lookin at him den he saw me lookin at him but i still keep lookin when he look away.. omg.. stil cant 4get his face.. haha.. if one day can c him again i sure go ask 4 his no. de.. haha.. but will i ever c him again.. c you yuan ma.. haa.. funny lo..i siao le... i aso dunno him.. but he got thick eye brow.. ohhh... dunno la.. i crazy de.. dun care me.. gt to go wk le. sianz.. so so so sianz..i hate it..take care n all e best to all of ur.. dun stress or sad le la...cheer up. it a brand new day...but still so siannzzzz......
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Thursday, March 23, 2006
soo fan.... no mood..
ytd went ktv at katong complex wif my fren n him.. haa.. so fun.. we sing 4 3 hour den my 2 fren hv to go wk le.. they take cab dwn to bugis den he send me hm by cab lo.. cuz my mom wan me to be hm by 615pm.. siao ar.. hw to rch hm by tat tm sia.. got traffic jam den rch hm at 6.30pm...e cab fare was $10 plus le.. den he ask e uncle to drive him bk to macpherson ite cuz he got training ma.. den while he in e cab i call him chat lo until he rch sch.. aft hang up i rush to clean e window.. my mom ask me to do i haven do.. den mit my mom 4 dinner.. den she nag n nag lo.. BTH... aiyo.. nag non-stop..den she take my hp but i got my hp bk le.. gtg to rush to wk le.. wkin at 10 but nw 915 i still at hm... my mom tot i wk at 3pm.. die le la..
so sianz.. hate my life..............................
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
sianz.....
jus buy lunch cm bk.. bought 4 me n my sis..i eatin duck rice lo.. everyday eat pasta very sian de leh.. i fat le la.. eat pasta everyday...omg.. sum more nv exercise sure becm fat pig le la.. den hor 5 of april is pasta mania dinner n dance lo.. all full timer mus go lo.. u knw at where ma.. at sentosa lo.. i cant believe lo.. but aso gd i mornin go in sun tan until it tm 4 my D n D.. den show face awhile den i go liao.. i den dun wan stay there sia.. sure boring de.. sure got alot of tok de.. even thou it my first tm attending tis type of function but lucky it at sentosa cuz attire is beach wear.. hahaha.. tat mean i can wear t-shirt n shorts.. dun hv to wear formal.. den pasta mania will open frm 11 to 2pm lo i tink so ba.. nt confirm yet.. who cmin dwn to pasta to eat.. i treat u.. but mus tell me in advance..my hp is wif me onli at nite my mom take but hor nt confirm la.. my mom sumtm sort sort de.. haa.. den tml is my off day n tml is my one mth wkin at pasta...my salary will be out on 1st april.. haa.. i will be goin shoppin.. first i will buy my bag den buy contact lens.. contact lens sum1 will hlp me buy cuz my mom dun allow me to wear.. den i will buy sunglasses den i goin to pierce my 4th ear hole.. cant let my mom find out if nt im dead..den i hv to pay my hp bill lo.. 2 mth nv pay le.. den i buyin more clothes.... haa....hmm.. tml off day mus do all e hsewk den can go out.. goin to katong e ktv.. goin wif my frenz.. haa... hmm... c hw lo.. mayb cant go out.. sianz.. so rite nw i hv to bring my dog 4 a walk den i goin to wk le.. wkin at 3pm to 11pm... take care all my dear frenz.. die le.. my hp bill mus pay le if nt get cut off... sianz.. nw aso no money to pay.. sobz.. mus take bk my $20 frm my fren.. haiz.. sad..
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
ok.. im in e wrong k
sori k.. nt u take wan.. ghost take wan.. happy.. dun wanna quarrel wif u.. nt in e mood to quarrel or wat.. so jus get out of my blog.. i wun disturb u n u dun cm disturb me n tat it..
jus do fin everyth... jus bath fin august..mop e floor..wash e 2 toilet n change e turtle water.. im goin out le.. wait i late.. better hurry... i haven tell my mom im goin out.. die le. aiya.. hack care.. later sure get scoldin de..
haiz.. dunno y my heart still hv tat emptiness feeling feel so sad.. n xin tong.. aiya.. dunno la.. dun wanna to knw aso.. haiz.. i still do mis u n luv u.. hw.. wat to do.. lyk tat lo.. jus carry on wif my idiot life.. haiz.. no mood at all... y i keep bluffin myself tat i dun luv u anymore.. tootpig de me.. stop dreaming le la... I GOT TO WAKE UP FRM MY DREAM.. sum1 pls hlp....
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wat to dO...? i dunnO dun ask me..
feel so so so sad n empty in my heart dunno y..? wat happen to me.... i aso dunno y... mayb cuz of those words tat she say..? but i tot i long ago already knw tis will happen but i dun believe mayb it true.... wat to do... while findin my dictionary i saw sth at my bedside e shelf.. n tat thing make me nw reali no mood again.. wan to 4get everyth but jus cant.. ya.. ppl may tink im happy but im nt.. im pretendin to be happy.. y mus i hv to bluff myself.. i can bluff myself but i cant bluff my heart cuz it hurt alot rite nw.. i dun believe in 4ever luv there no such things.. my fren jus broke up wif her bf.. but her bf told her it nt completely over 4 them.. my fren was lost whether to wait 4 him to be ready..she say she dun wan to put so much hope on tat.. i can understand hw she feel cuz i kind of in e same stituation wif her.. whether to wait cuz dunno stil got hope ma.. but dun wan to put too much hope cuz when e truth is out i dun tink i will be able to cope it.. i wan to 4get everyth.. since jan 1 2006 so many things hv happen i tot i could hv a fresh start wif new job new fren everyth but nw it seem lyk a nitemare 4 me.. nw is march 21 le.. hw tm fly.. i wan to hv a brain wash lyk my date wif vampire 3 e show the 2 person hv brain wash but they mit each other again n becm lover.. b4 brain wash they were once lover but because of the hates between them they fight.. if i can hv a brain wash den i 4get eveyth tat will be gd den i wont be so sad le.. i will be e innocent gal who dunno anyth n start her life afresh again.. haa.. but until i got knock dwn by a car n knock my head den i can lost my memory... i feel tat im so useless lo.. i dun knw wat i wan in life sia.. i next year goin bk to study but i wan to study sport n wellness mangnment at simei..but dunno can ma.. i wan to studies business too cuz i palnin to open a cafe 4 dog lover to hv them meal tgt wif their dog cuz most of e cafe n resturant they dun allow.. i findin my recipe le.. tinkin of wat to sell n hw to do it in such a way tat it outstand frm other cafe.. but all tis nd money tat y im wkin nw.. i wan to go bk to studies cuz i wan to start running n mayb paly floorball again.. miss my sch life.. i wan to go 4 holiday i still rem when i in my first year in ite e sch organise a sccap camp 4 sports leader we went to batam.. it was so damn fun it a 3 days 2 nite camp.. so happy tat my mom allow me to go.. still can rem i got lock outside 4 dunno hw long cuz my fren fall aslp while watchin tv.. i went to e guys room to chit chat until 12 am den hv to go bk to my room le.. den last year they aso hv a sccap camp tis tm it was held at malacca... so fun lo.. e last nite at there they keep disturbin ppl.. the guys went to press other ppl bell den faster run away n hide.. haa.. but i in e room half aslp cuz very tired sia.. haiz.. e camp tm so short nia.. 3 days 2 nite where gt enough.. but anyw i did enjoy myself n learn alot of thing den all those who went to sccap camp hv to organise e frenship day event lo.. but so sad e day b4 my event i fall ill.. i was too weak to go 4 event i wait 4 event to cm but im sick.. sick 4 3 day den went bk to sch on thur which is my bday.. haa.. i wan to go 4 a holiday nw.. so i can be away frm all e bad memories.. of cuz nt alone la.. wif sum1 i luv.. who will be tat sum1.. still waitin....................haiz... dunno la..
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Monday, March 20, 2006
damn pissed off
YTD DUNNO WHO TAKE MY THINGS DEN DUN WAN RETURN SAY THROW AWAY LE.. I DUN BELIEVE LO..I DUN TINK U WILL THROW LO I TINK U KEEPIN IT 4 URSELF LO... NO MATTER WAT U BETTER PAY BK OR RETURN TO ME LO.. I YTD IS VERY FED UP LE BUT IM GVIN U FACE AS NT TO SHOUT LO.. N IT NT MINE LO.. IT EDWIN WAN LO.. I HELP HIM KEEP DE LO.. N SO WAT IF I SMOKE.. IT ASO NONE OF UR BUSINESS LO.. I WAN DO WAT I DO LA.. ND U CARE MEH.. DEN DUNNO WHO GO SAY TIS N TAT.. MY THING ASO MUS GO TELL PPL 4 WAT SIA.. SO PISS OFF NW LO.. WTH LO.. TAKE LE DUN WAN RETURN...MAKE ME WALK ALL E WAY TO SIM LIM SQUARE DEN HV TO WALK BK TO MRT STATION.. LUCKY MY MOM NV SCOLD ME IF NT I WILL BE EVEN MORE HOT.. N ASK PPL GO READ MY BLOG 4 WAT SIA.. U KNW CAN LE TELL PPL 4 WAT.. IT MY LIFE WAT...Argh....SO PISSED OFF NW.. IDIOT LO... I DUN WAN SCOLD DE LO... U MAKE ME SCOLD DE..I YTD ALREADY VERY TIRED AFTER WK LE.. STILL CM MAke ME..
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
mY wiSh LisTs
save money den can buy things tat i wan but actually nt much things i wan la..-adidas jacket--sling bag--black belt--contact lens--sunglasses--s&k cargo pants--watch--new hp--more new clothes--collar shirts--cool t-shirts--three-quarter pants--billabong slipper--cool shoes--freedom--new hairstyle--keep fit--wish to be wif e sum1 i luv...-and lot more...
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
ai hen jian dan..... i lUv U....
ya,, i change song again.. songs meaing nice.. haiz.. dunno la.. ytd no mood to wk lyk tat.. sian sian wan very tired too.. nwadays i 12 plus slp le.. or earlier is 11 plus i slp le.. my mom ytd tell me say they hear me sing song 4 awhile den fall aslp le den nv off my computer.. haa.. i every nite b4 i slp i sing n record my singin c got improve ma but lyk nv.. hmm.. nvm practice more lo.. haa.. want to fullfil my little dream.. lose aso nvm de.. reali nth to say.. jus go to wk den cm bk hm le lo.. i waitin 4 fri my off day.. wan to rest at hm.. lazy to go out.. but i wan go kbox on fri who wan go wif me worx.. so long nv c mich le.. mon got alot ppl cm find me worx so happy.. mich got cm dwn bugis den xiaojac aso.. den sum1 else too.. i treat her eat pasta lo.. den treat mich eat banana pizza.. den aft eatin we took mrt hm.. mich alight at bishan den me n xiaojac alight at amk lo.. she send me hm..tm reali pass very fast lo.. 17 mar cm i already knw her 4 10 mth le.. haa.. but i dunno la.. i ask her she wan swts ma she say dun wan den i ask her wat she wan she say i shld knw wat she wan.. she ask me i nw wat label.. i nw no label lo.. haa.. she ask me turn p.. den she can jio me bk.. haa.. cute sia.. but i dun tink i will ba.. i already make a promises to sum1 i will nv 4get tat promises n i wont break it.. but dunno la.. i ytd dream of her worx.. tis pass 2 days keep hvin weird dream.. dun knw y.. tink too much le.. or mus be last nite b4 i slp i c her pic den will dream of her ba.. haa.. but i cant reali rem wat i dream but it a nice dream..haiz.. nw 8 le.. i wan go slp for 10 min den go wk le.. blog when i free..
iT sO paiNfuL keEpin tO mysElf n canT lEt u knw hw mUch i reALi luv U..n i aLwayS dO.. bUt nO maTTer waT i jus waNna u tO be haPPy n nTh elSe.. My lUv fOr U is Jus aS simPle..
i reALi do Luv U but i dUnno waT u tinkIn... haiz...
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Monday, March 13, 2006
sad n lonely de wO...
aft 22 feb... it seem tat i hv fallen frm heaven to hell.. everyth change very fast in less than a day.. everyth jus disappear frm me.. everyth tat i ever hv.. my happiness.. e smile on my face.. e happy memories turn to pain in my heart.. but i of cos still hv to go on..but go on wif a hole in my heart.. there still many many things i stil dun understand n im still questioning myself wat actually happen.. n y is it happenin to me.. n wat happen to me.. where e last tm de wo.. who is so confident of myself.. i onli feel contented when i run.. i did cry when i lost e race last year.. my track n field meets last year is e worst i ever hv but i hv to admit tat i hv lost.. i was very sad.. ppl say lost onli wat y u cry aso nth de.. wat nth.. running is my life.. cuz i alway get 1st or 2nd or 3rd i nv get 5th b4 lo.. jus very disappointed wif myself n i hate myself.. nw e feeling is bk.. i jus hate myself alot nw lo..jus find tat im a failure in everyth.. ya im a loser always is..nth goin to change it.. i knw i did hurt sum1 but tat sum1 jus keep silent.. i knw de.. i knw tat sum1 try to 4get n wanna start afresh n if she happy i will be happy too.. seeing her smile is everyth..jus wanna say sorry to u.. i reali dunno wat im doin n wat i wan n tat e worst.. u dunno who u can trust n who tellin e true n who is nt... but i trust tat sum1 no matter wat..haiz.. got to go wk le.. sianz..but i wk 5 hour nia.. haa.. i got bk my hp le.. anyth can msg me.. but my mom can anytm take bk frm me..
LIVING IN A LONELY HELL WORLD OF MINE WIF JUS ME, ABBY N JAYSTON... IM A FAILURE... GET IT.. =((
confuseme [8:20 PM]
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k-ci & jojo - all my life
at last i found e lyrics... haiz.. sad sad sad de songs which bring bk memories tat i cant 4 get.. still mendin my heart...
Baby, baby, baby, baby, babyBaby,
baby, baby, baby, babyBaby, Ooh, I'm so glad
I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you, sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are
Close to me, you're like my mother
Close to me, you're like my father
Close to me, you're like my sister
Close to me, you're like my brother
You are the only one, you're my everything
And for you this song I sing, and
All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you, babyAll my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
I said, you're all that I'm thinking of, baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you so much, baby, baby, baby
Repeat
You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that youFeel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too
All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you, baby
All my lifeI prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
Repeat until fade
confuseme [7:40 PM]
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ai wo hai shi ta
hei an zhong de wo men dou mei you shuo hua
ni zhi xiang hui jia bu xiang ni hui jia
ji mo shen de xiang hai tai rang ren hai pa
wen rou ni de shou qing qing rou zhe wo de fa
ni de mei yan shuo ni hao ke wang wo yong bao
ni shen ti que zai pin ming tao dang yu wang zai ran shao
ni ai wo hai shi ta
shi bu shi zhen de ta you bi wo hao ni wei shey zai zheng zha
ai wo hai shi ta
jiu shuo chu ni xiang shuo de zhen xin hua
ni dao di yao gen wo hai shi ta
zhi shi bu shi ming yun dui wo de cheng fa
ai ni ye mei ban fa hen ni ye mei ban fa
xian zai zhe ge xuan wo zhi xiang zheng tuo ta
la zhe ni de shou que rang wo ye bei tuo xia
ni de mei yan shuo ni bu ke wang wo yong bao
mei dang ai bian cheng le jian ao ni jiu kai si yao tao
ni ai wo hai shi ta
shi bu shi wo ke yi zuo de geng hao rang ni bu zai zheng za
ni ai wo hai shi ta
wo ning yuan ting dao casn ren de hui da
ye bu yao zai bei yao
ni ai wo hai shi ta
wo wei ni zao le yi bai ge li you
wo jiu shi na me sha
ni ai wo hai shi ta
shi fou chen mo dai ti ni de hui da
wo ying gai ming bai ba
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qu ai ta
confuseme [4:34 PM]
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
disappointed de wO... [jiE koU...] aN jiNg de ai ni..
haiz.. so disappointed lo.. wait 4 1 an a half hour or more but cant get to c sum1 so lyk tat lo.. very disappointed.. haiz.. nvm lo.. mayb mei you yuan ba.. den i go hm..i go hm use com listen music awhile den call sum1 tok awhile she hvin lesson she say she will mis cal me later den ok lo.. den aft awhile jovern call den she tell me my mom call her mom again lo.. wth lo.. ytd when i rch hm she say i tell u ar.. u better dun contact her again if nt i bring u go police station.. dot lo.. contact fren aso got wrong meh..?we aso nv go fight or kill ppl..or go steal things.. u wan bring den bring lo.. i dun care n nt scare de lo.. haiz.. dunno la.. very fan nw... dun tok abt it le... den i go bath cuz later got bible studies den aft bath i go mop e whole hse lo.. den jus nice e teacher cm le..den hv bible studies until 12 plus tok abt alot of things lo.. wat dun follow bad company.. obey god ar.. dun go e wrong path.. alot of things la.. but i very tired la so almost wan fall aslp but nv la.. when it was abt to end sum1 mis cal me den i call her bk tok lo... den she nd to do project den hang up lo.. den nw i nd to go wk le.. nw 130pm le..haiz.. feel lyk slpin but cant go slp le.. haiz.. dunno la.. my life nw so confuse.. mayb i knw e ans le but stil wil wait de lo.. dunno y... i very foolish de wat.. jus lyk wat de lyrics in ai wo hai shi ta say..
haiz.. ni ai wo hai shi ta...? i dunno.. but nvm la.. jus wan u to be happy.. im ok wif it.. im stil alive..n will carry on living de.. jus want to c ur smile.. i reali mis ur smile.. ur jus one smile can make me 4get all my problem n trouble..it been exactly 14 days i nv c u le.. haiz... missin u...
confuseme [1:35 PM]
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Monday, March 06, 2006
dyin soon.. MENTAL BREAKIN DOWN SOON..
haiz.. it happenin again my mom go take away my hp n read msg den say wat i stil got contact jovern again ar.. say wat she send say tis is my new hp no..? huh.. where gt lo.. i rem i got delete msg lo.. dun tell me my mom lie to me again or i reali nv delete but i keep e msg 4 wat sia.. haiz.. i goin to be mad soon.. my mom is drivin me crazy sia..everytm check me.. check wallet check hp.. say wat i behv very funny..can let we tis small kid off ma..y everytm mus go disturb ppl...i every mornin nw everytm got asthma le..i use e spray aso no use.. nw still cant breathe properly.. i ytd go buy cigar again..i reali dun feel lyk smokin anymore but i force myself to smoke.. jus smoke n smoke lo.. my throat nw pain den nt reali feelin tat well nw.. very headache.. when im stress or sad i dun care im dyin or wat le i sure will smoke de.. nw i tink she wan make tis matter big.. u wan bring me go girl hm ar.. den bring lo.. i nt scare.. u bring lo den c who will wk n hlp u wif all e bills n everyth..i reali no mood to wk le.. y i take mc on valentine day is u who make me no mood to wk de lo.. n is nt jovern y everytm say her.. everytm jovern.. i mean if i wan be fren wif her is my problem i dun nd u to tell me de.. u keep sayin her 4 wat.. aft all she still my fren lo.. i hate it when u say her lo.. she so innocent lo.. u makin her headache aso.. wat u wan me to do sia.. u wan me to disappear den u happy izzit.. i will de lo.. im feelin very confuse n stress nw.. u so old le still wan bully us.. cant i hv my own freedom.. u already took away my hp.. n internet connection.. u say wat i so late le still use internet.. i of cuz at nite free le den can use la.. when u at hm i aso cant use mus wait until u slp le den i can on..ya.. u gv me internet to use but can i use when u at hm ma.. cannt rite.. when im done wif my hsewk i jus on my com wan to use u dwn there naggin le.. so e best tm 4 me to use is when u go slp.. cant u understand me.. everyday scold me nag at me i dun mind de.. but nw u reali drivin me crazy.. y cant u understand me..i knw u say jovern is bad or wat.. but i dun find her bad at all..i hv my own tinkin n u hv ur can pls stay out of my bussiness ma.. i reali very sick n tired of hidin here or there to contact my fren..den u gv birth me out to tis world 4 wat..to torture me..?i hate u..
aiya.. gtg out le.. mitin fren.. haiz...later wkin at 3 to 11 again.. no life man...
confuseme [4:52 PM]
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wantEd tO go bk To inNocent de wO..
wa lau damn irritating lo.. my sis 4get to bring her hp to sch again..wth lo.. i hv to go simei again.. every week lyk tat.. wth lo.. haiz.. damn tired.. jus nw i was slpin den suddenly sum1 wake me up frm my window.. oh it my bible study teacher.. she say so long nv c u le hw r u..i say erm ok lo.. den i open e door 4 her lo.. den she tok to me abt hw worry my mom all those den ask wat happen lo.. dot.. i nv say much to her.. haiz.. i tink everyth hv settle le ba.. i 3 week dun hv bible studies onli den got so many problem.. haa.. but i thur got bible studies at 10am b4 i wk.. huh.. den i cant slp longer le.. actually today mornin wan go running de but too tired le so i fall bk to slp.. haa.. aiya.. nth to say le gtg bring e hp to my sis sch.. hope can get to c sum1 at bedok later cuz i takin 25 to bedok den change bus to 31..haa.. nw 1040am le.. die.. n i hv quit smokin le.. nt goin to smoke anymore.. i start my 1st stick on 1 feb.. nw is 6 march.. so it had been 1 month 6 days.. since 1 feb many many things had happen.. some happy but most of them unhappy de.. happy 4 awhile onli de 4 everyth.. den most of e tm is sad cuz tink too much le.. ya.. i m tat foolish de.. i can say i is treasure all my fren de i can becuz of fren becum no mood or sad all those.. it nt been e first tm le.. but i seldom hv tis pro la.. hope it will nv happen again.. haiz.. i want to go bk to 18 august 2004.. that is my most happiest tm of life. everyth is so perfect..we nv quarrel at all de.. he alway gv in to me.. jus me n sum1 tgt.. haiz.. den my mom again keep msg him n scold him all those thing la.. say she dun wan c me wif him anymore aso dunno becuz of wat reason lo.. den haiz.... dun wan say le... aft tis r/s nth is perfect le.. wa...huh.. huiqin jus call me say e bus leavin at 12.. i hv to rch mp at 12.. sure cant make it de lo.. i reali gtg le.. free den blog lo.. take care everyone..haiz...
confuseme [10:38 AM]
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
you're beautiful- JAMES BLUNT LYRICS
You're Beautiful"
My life is brilliant.
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.I saw an angel.Of that I'm sure.She smiled at me on the subway.
]She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw your face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.Yeah, she caught my eye,As we walked on by.She could see from my face that I was,Flying high,And I don't think that I'll see her again,But we shared a moment that will last till the end.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,When she thought up that I should be with you.But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.tis song is for sum1.. haiz...
confuseme [11:07 PM]
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haizz....
my fren jus msg to tell me she cant make it le.. haiz.. den lyk tat lo..i haven do any hsewk yet.. dun feel lyk doin.. all i wan to do is slp.. so damn tired.. lazy to do anyth.. haiz.. so bored.. no1 to go out wif.. all so bz de.. nw my life becm so damn bored.. onli work work work n nth else.. work si wo.. tml wkin 10 to 6.. sun wkin 10 t0 6.. mon off. cuz huiqin ask me go c e cross country race.. den i take off lo.. den tue to sun wk again lo.. den another week dunno take which day off.. haiz.. mayb tue.. haiz.. all i do nw is eat slp wk.. no mood at all.. feel so moodless.. nt e last tm de wo.. at least happy abit nw is completely cant smile at all.. everyday go wk no mood de.. my hp nw hv aso no use cant msg sum1 as often le.. or mayb nv msg at all.. nt lyk last tm le.. so my hp bill confirm wont exceed le.. no life sia.. y my life becm frm bad to worst sia.. where got tis type of logic de.. nt fair lo.. hate my life.. hate myself.. hate abby..
reali no mood to do anyth.. i wan to smoke but no more le jus smoke fin my last stick.. haiz.. why... why why.. all tis is happeninto me.. if i could turn bk tm i wan it to turn bk to 23rd jan.. i wan to start frm there again... i will tink b4 i do anyth or say anyth.. but it all too late le..
hw to start my life afresh without u.. tel me hw.. i reali dunno.. mayb i fated to be a loner ba.. jus me myself n i.. jayston tis name is i tink of it de.. actually i wan call alexander.. but too long.. so choose tis name lo.. so im nt call abby le.. i dun wan to go bk e last tm de me.. im jayston.. de new me... new life new me but stil waitin 4 one person.. stil will wait de.. i haven gv up since 23rd jan..nv ever will.. im sori i hv hurt u or make u sad.. but i nv ever wan to anymore.. haiz.. nth to say le.. go do hsewk le... tc everyone..
confuseme [7:43 PM]
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SAD N HURT DE WO... IM NT ABBY ANYMORE.. IM A CHANGE PERSON..
haiz.. mornin read fin email.. den no mood again but no cigar to smoke den i fall aslp until nw 10 plus.. die le lo.. i haven bath my dog n mop e floor.. later stil mit my fren at 2 at suntec.. she wan go shoppin but i stil hv to go simei buy uniform 4 my sis cuz i iron spoil her pants.. haHA.. I Iron until got one big hole sia.. wa.. damn tired lo.. ytd very bz lo.. e crowd keep cmin.. den while wkin i aso can fall aslp.. no matter wat i do i aso cant stay awakw..i eat swts aso no use.. i drink coke light aso no use.. den try nt to lo.. haiz.. ytd reali tired dunno y.. mayb becuz i mornin do 100 push ups.. wa.. den my hand nw ache sia.. i aso dunno y no mood to eat.. ate 2 piece of pizza in e afternoon.. den drink lime juice..actually wan go mos burger there buy strawberry shakes but no tm.. n dun ever ever go mac to buy their.. it so er xin lo.. mos burger wan nicer.. i smoke a total of 7 sticks ytd.. haiz...5 in e mornin 2 at nite.. NO MOOD..
haiz.. dunno y i reali no mood.. nth to write or say le.. n ya.. i hv 4get everyth abt e past wif sum1 le..nv tink aBT IT LE.. n i hv change name.. so dun call me abby anymore.. im nt last tm e abby who keep hurtin ppl n make ppl sad n nv keep promises de.... i hv change.. so i mean everyth i say.. i tink sum hv knw my new name..but i tink onli al knw ba..
to xiaojac.. sori i hang up e fone on u ytd when u call.. i dun hv e mood to tok n wish to be alone 4 awhile.. i nv pick up any phone calls ytd.. n ya..im nt last tm e abby u knw.. dun wait 4 me le ba.. i dun wan to get into any relationship nw.. u shld knw ba.. i stil cant 4get sum1.. tat one n only sum1... is in my heart nw.. i where got gd.. u sure can find sum1 much better than me de.. i knw i hurt u when i say tis cuz i feel e hurt nw.. very difficult to explain tis type of hurt n saddness.. so u tc k.. c when free den go out lo.. haiz..
confuseme [6:55 PM]
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
nitemare.. n i hv awoken frm my dream n past. wat hv past is alreday is a past...
aft i read e email u send me my mind was totally blank.. i cant tink anyth... my mind is empty but my heart is feelin e pain.. den i smoke 3 sticks at one go.. i nv ever wan to hurt myself by cuttin anymore so i do 100 push up n i whole mornin is listenin to shan hu hai den i dunno y i fall aslp.. in my slp i hv a dream.. it nt a dream it a nitemare.. i dream i was in another island.. i dun knw where.. den there a group of band over there singin shan hu hai.. den there a guy look lyk jay chou singin shan hu hai den there many ppl over there waitin 4 him to take autogra den i went up to him to let him sign my autogra bk i wanted to gv u e autogra cuz i knw u aso a fan of him.. he took n sign n gv me a kiss.. den edwin was there.. can c tat his face hv change but he nv say anyth den later suddenly i was at sumwhere else hse.. it was very big there many sercuity guard sum is robot de sum is human de.. den suddenly edwin grab me he dun wan to let me go.. i was very scare.. he say he wan to .... me so i ran.. (onli sum of my fren knw wat happen to me regradin him.. dun wan to say le.. very scary) e place is very big i dun knw where im goin i jus run..den he call all e sercuity guard to stop me but i manage to get away frm them.. until i rch e carpark... there many ppl cm aft me wif weapon i dun care i jus run up wif them i grab one of there weapon which is a sword n i jus kill watever is infront of me n i manage to get out of e bulidin.. den i continue running den edwin is behind me wif a few ppl.. i continue running i nv stop until at one period of tm cuz i was too tired den i fall dwn frm e top.. i pretend to faint.. i wanted to c whether he got worry 4 me a nt.. but he nv.. he jus ask them to carry me bk n he jus walk away when i c tat he hv walk quite far le i push them away n i continue running but tis tm he cant chase aft me cuz i ran to hide.. i jus run n run den i go into a boat n i saw his grandfather.. i dunno is who cuz e dream is very confusin.. i ask him to bring me hm i very scare of edwin.. but he bring me go buy foods cuz he knw i hungry den while walkin hm.. i suddenly wake up.. tat my nitemare..
nw feelin so scare dunno y..? i reali do hv probia wif guys nw.. haiz.. dunno la.. jus very scare aft wat happen.. but who knw hw i feelin rite nw.. i feelin damn confuse rite nw.. my life nw is in a mess.. i reali dunno wat im doin.. haiz.. dun knw wat to say le.. dun wan to say anyth le.. i tink i smoke 2 much le jus smoke 4 sticks feel lyk vomitin nw.. dun feel lyk eatin either..
haiz.. ytd i late 4 wk.. i was late 4 7 min cuz i tink i mis bus 147.. haiz.. den lyk tat lo.. e outlet manager say ur $50 allowance dun hv le..haiz.. den lyk tat lo..ytd my mood ok la.. pretend to be ok but im nt.. wan to smoke but i dun hv le den endure until at nite den i go take frm him..smoke 5 sticks ytd.. my sis msg me tis mornin.. she say u tink i dunno u still smokin ar.. she say hw will mummy feel if she knw u r smokin.. she say i already tell u if u got problem can tell me de..say i 19 yeaR old le still dunno hw to tink.. haiz.. but wat to do.. i onli hv my cigar as my fren nw.. no1 i can turn to at all.. ya.. i hv.. mich n xiaojac.. they knw abt sum things.. but im bz wkin no tm to mit up wif them or call them.. but who knw hw i reali feel.. haiz.. i reali hate myself.. hate myself so much..
confuseme [7:06 PM]
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thks....for everyth....
ytd b4 i went to wk jo mom call me.. actually i dun wan to pick up de cuz i tot is e bastard call de.. i aso dunno y i go c e caller ID c who call de den i c e no. look so familar.. den i rem is whose fone no. de.. i was still tinkin whether to pick up ma but i jus pick up lo.. usually at tat tm i already leave my hse le but ytd i nd to do sum hsewk tat y late go out.. but i glad tat i haven leave my hse cuz e call was worth even if i will be late 4 wk i aso dun mind cuz it make my day better abit aft e call.. she call to tel me tat jo nv say i shout at her when i cant go mit her jus say i abit erm dunno hw to say.. no la.. actually i was disappointed tat all.. ya.. den she say alot of things la.. wat jo dun lyk al she jus playful all those..? den wat cant be fren tingy.. i nv reali listen cuz i was tinkin abt wat had happen... den b4 she end e call she say sth tat make me tear.. my tears jus drop i aso dunno y.. den jus nice kiss gdbye e songs is playin.. say dun go torture urself cuz in future u will regret say y last tm so stupid go cut urself all those den say wat even though i hv went to her hse n hv know me 4 a short tm.. she find me a gd gal..?i where got gd sia.. she say alot of things la.. jus wan to say to jo mom thks 4 e advice n concern.. n i reali appreaciate everyth tat she hv done 4 me.. hw she take care me... i nv hate jo or wat.. i nv blame her anyth or say her anyth.. i aso reali hope we stil can be fren cuz i aso treat her as my gd fren..ya.. hmm..nth to say le.. thks so much..
ytd reali no mood to wk cuz of e cashier problem la.. den my manager sit dwn n tok wif me.. he ask me wat is troubling u.. he say i look trouble.. he ask izzit becuz of ur mom i say ya.. n i told him frenship problem too..n there other things too.. den he say im a very gd n hardwkin worker hope tat i can concentrate more on my wk when wkin.. he say he got reason 4 lettin me to cm bk to wk at pasta 4 fulltm.. he say later on i will knw e reasons..? hmm.. i wonder wat e reason..?if can be manager i sure very happy de.. but i too quiet le.. mus tok more.. den aft tokin to e manager i feel much better again.. den later i go 4 my break lo..i eat spicy chicken add chilli den i add alot of tobacco sauce again.. haa. wa.. very nice.. ytd onli at nite at abt 8 plus den start to bz den hor e cashier break dwn lucky ytd i nv do cashier if nt i sure will blur de.. den they hv to write e orders on paper.. den hv to write dwn e orders gv kitchen to cook.. very troublesome sia.. walk here walk there.. den start to do closin at 9.. den leave pasta abt 11 den sit dwn at mac 4 awhile..i smoke 2 sticks.. ytd smoke a total of 5 sticks.. den mornin wan to smoke but i dun hv any left den i take 1 frm my sis but i nw stil wan smoke.. haiz.. lyk cigar is my life rite nw.. when i lonely or sad e cigar is wif me wherever i go.. my fren say those who smoke will live longer u wan to knw y.. it been proven.. when both person goin to die at e same tm e one who is smokin can live 5 min more jus to smoke his last stick of cigar.. haha.. lame lo.. but i be quitin by e end of march..i try too.. who can help me..?haa.. haiz.. fri off day who wan go out wif me..? so bored.. been wkin 4 5 days le...which is 40 hours... 50 hour is e hour i wk when i do part tm 4 1 month.. but i do enjoy wkin at pasta.. i hv fren there to tok abt stuff.. it fun knwin them..
MY ONLY ONE...I jUs wan tO teLL u taTU stiLL e oNly oNe taT i hV Luv n miSs..tAt i stiLL canT fOrgeT e haPpy tiMe wE hv togeTher..thE thinGS tAt we dO togEther..the tHings tAt u saY i sTill reM very cLearly..N e sOngs taT we sinG togetHer..everYTh of U haven leFT me..u stiLL a parT of me i canT let gO...i stiLL cant forget u..eUU tuRn my Life arOunD..n piCk me uP wheN i was dOwn..im sOri 4 e thinGs i hv done tat upset U..i wiLL be theRe fOr U nO matteR waT haPPen..i wiLL dO anYth u saY..i wiLL gv U happiNess aS i prOmiSe eUU..if U oNly cOuld gv me a ChaNce..N i wiLL prOmiSe U taT i wiLL nv leT u dwN eveR agaIn..aLL i neeD nw iS a chanCe fOr me N U..all i wAnna tO say isi REallY Luv eUU..eUU r my oNe anD oNly oNe i LUV rite nw..n i reaLi waN tO be wiF eUU agaiN..tinKin abt e paST reaLi huRts me aLot..cuZ eveRyth i see riTe nw is eUU..bUt U r nT heRe wif mE anyMore...i woNder hw hv eUU beEn.. whEre R u..?r eUU alritE..?i cAnt cArry On wif mY Life wiThout eUU..eUU r mY eveRyth..i wiLL aLways bE riTe heRe waiTin 4 eUU..iT paiNs me cUz i cAnt heEr ur vOice n seE ur sMiLe oN ur faCe..i dO anyth to maKe eUU smiLE n tO get cLose wiF euu aGAin..i reaLi reGret all e tHings i hv dOne..wHen euU lefT i Lost a paRt of me..i oNly tinK of eUU n it breAkin My heart..n i beLieve tAt we beLOng together..nw the gHost of euu is aLL i hv leFt tO hOld..n mY heaRT is bLeedin insiDe..StiLL waitin N miSsin eUU..haiZ....
confuseme [1:19 PM]
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