Friday, September 21, 2007
wo ke yi ....
this song is dedicate to eUU.. hw i wish i can sing to u... whr r u.... hz..i miSs everyTh abt eUu.... i luV eUu ......
confuseme [5:21 PM]
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
abby is DEAD!! <>
my bday on tat day i be wkin full shift ba.. 4get abt it i dun wan celebrate le.. i wan to be alone... i dun wan my bday on tat day to be a sad wan lo.. i rather wk.. hz... im dead anyway.. who will wan to celebrate wif a dead person.. i will mia frm tis world de... hw i wish i hv a memory lost.. i dun wan feel e hurt keep cmin bk.. i hv do wat i can le.. so it tm 4 me to mia.. im dead anyway.. y i wan tk mc today .. cuz i scare sum1 will feel dwn.. so i took in case sth happen den i can be there.. all go to waste.. hz.. nvm... i understd... it ok ..
dun tell me u luv me wen u dun even knw wat is luv k.. im sick n tired of it.. my heart felt so numb nw.. u mk me say all those tins to u de.. i go on e way to ur hse waste my cab fare jus to heard ur nonsence.. pls la.. u nt my std anymore lo.. so wat if i lyk sum1 else.. dun wan say le.. jus tc n im sori to say all those hurtin words to u.. im nt a gd person..jus 4get me..
went 4 bike lesson 1 agn fail e 2nd tm.. i lost control cuz too fast i bang into e rubber wall n flew off my bike.. injure lo.. who care.. bt minor injuries.. hz... i wish i could die.. pls grant my wish.. than living in tis world..
i tot u will be there wen i nd u bt whr r u.. i wait 4 u to cm into my life bt u seem to be far away frm me avoidin me.. did i do anyth wrong? y dun u let me knw.. hz.. i hv do wat i can it tm 4 me to say gd bye..
confuseme [1:00 PM]
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Saturday, September 15, 2007
i hate u!!
went 4 my bike lesson 1 fail sia.. keep fallin off e bike cuz e damn bike is damn heavy lo. n secondly i cant balance.. is can la.. is jus tat i duno la.. so pc lo.. thks tat instructor 4 being so patience wif me.. guiding me all e way.. at least i can go round e circuit.. bt still duno hw to change gear yet... argh so pc.. i swear lyk hell lo..lyk run 2.4km lyk tat.. injuries alot too.. argh.. so pathetic..
i jus hate her so much.. she say it e same. i dun feel e same anymore.. cuz of wat she say sth over e fone jus mk me cry.. i feel so sad... anyw she aso dun care le.. she gt tat fucker le wat.. im nth to her anyw.. nw i knw all e while im nt her std at all.. 4 e whole 1yr 3mth plus im jus a shit to her.. until she had sum1 she lyk she dump me.. wat is luv man.. i dun understd k.. i feel so hurt k.. i wan to 4get everyth abt u kk.. u mk me hate u so much.. even thou last tm i luv u so much.. i cant bear to lose u.. i knw u dun nd me anymore.. jus go ur own way n i go my own way.. argh.. I SO SO SO HATE EUU>> GET OUT OF MY LIFE>
confuseme [8:30 AM]
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Thursday, September 13, 2007
hope she dun angry wif me..
wkin at 10am ltr nw 930am le still at hm bloggin..hope tat sum1 dun angry wif me.. dunno leh.. im scare.. anyw i 4gt wat im doin le.. hz.. memory lose.. ltr at nite gt my practical lesson 1 4 bike.. hope it went well n i can mk it la.. scary.. ytd mime hlp me cut hair.. haha.. quite nice la.. n she highlight my hair blue.. haha.. e color ok lo. thks mime i reali appreaciate it v much .. we frm 1am do til 6am lo.. lots of hard wk she put in.. damn tired too.. we keep fallin aslp.. we boh wkin at 10 so i guess she be damn tred nw.. duno wen den can buy psp slim.. hz.. i nd money lots of it.. i nd a part tm job soon... i mk a wish ytd wif buddy at suntec there ... hope it cae true.. haha.. i wish i wish i wish.......
hz.. i duno leh.. i missin sum1.. i will jus be waitin 4 ur msg k.. cuz dun wanna disturb u.. u aso v bz.. wen u free i nt free.. hz.. sad sad.. jus tc worx..
confuseme [6:32 PM]
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i gv up.. feel so hurt ...
i knw i chose e wrong choice.. wan to c sum1 so difficult meh.. i alrdy rch her hse busstop at khatib.. jus wanna c sum1 i lie to her n tk e las train bk to amk den tk cab bk hm.. wanted to go her hse blk le den she msg say dun nd le. wat can i do.. listen n dun go lo.. feel so brk dwn.. i alrdy bought 2 cN OF beer.. so i drink all fin alone lo.. cry alone n smke alot.. cut myself so mani tm blood keep flowin dwn as my tears drop.. msg my fren they lyk keep scoldin me.. i knw it 4 my own gd.. bt im feelin dwn so nv listen. stil continue cuttin myself.. i tink gt abt 20 cuts on my hand.. i feel so sad n heart broken... duno wat to do.. ciger fin so went to buy.. so feel lyk dyin.. hz.. tmll do openin duno hw to do.. nw wat tm le aso cant slp.. head so pain.. vomit alot jus nw. feel so xinku.. who cares. duno she rch hm le ma? waitin 4 msg mayb 4ever aso wont cm.. feel tat im so toot in luv.. it tm i let go of everyth n start afresh.. bt i will do wat i promise n let go.. i promise u de..dun wanna c u sad n unhapi.. jus c ur smile all e tm.. i wish upon mani stars bt nth seem to reply mee.. im all alone in e dark mayb tat my world.. world of feelin hrt.. world of loiness.. thks 4 everyth n i will get out of e circle of ur life if i can do it.. it nt ur fault bt mind to hv fall deep in luv wif sum1 i shoud nt hv.. mis tat sum1 so much.. wanted to hold her n catch her wen she dwn.. dun wanna c her get hurt.. i will mv on if i can n 4get abt all e wishful tinkin tat i hv e chance of being wof u n gvin u my luv..
confuseme [12:28 PM]
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
tired...i knw i cant luv u bt i wan to..
jus do fin my theory1 online.. i pass leh.. haha.. 5 out of 5.. i keep fallin aslp while learnin it.. too tired le.. fri is practical 1.. too excited le.. haa. hope pass ifr nt hv to pay money agn n waste tm.. i dun wan i wan faster pass everyth.. tml mayb go find job wif my fren aft wk tml at 6.. hope can find.. i nd e money badly.. n my mom dunno im learnin bike.. hope she dun find out..
haa.. today b wk went to play arcade during my break tm aso play den aft wk aso play.. im addicted to it le.. cuz of tat stupid basketball la.. mk me pc.. i cant even go stage 3.. short of 5 point can le.. so pc.. argh.. tml try agn.. total i spent alot on it le.. until e ppl who wk ther aso knw me liao.. SUM1 PLS STOP ME FROM PLAYIN>> it a waste of money.. haha.. so tured nw is 430am le.. tmldo openin i still dun wan slp sia.. ltr sure v tired de.. hz.. nvm tml gt ah zi lin do openin wif me.. haha.. my fav mgr.. tml hv to teach one new indo guy openin.. i hate it man.. hz.. zzzz
i mis sum1 so much.. my fren say i dun look lyk bung.. i look so girly cuz of my action n e way i talk.. y is tat so.. so dots lo.. haa. i tink i hv to learn more frm my buddy.. bt anyw im a bi.. haa. duno la.. i wan to be myself.. so if u lyk me u hv to lyk who i m.. im nt goin to change myself .. tat will depend on who wan me to change k.. ur knw me shld knw who i will change 4.. i tink buddy n jas hear me keep tolin abt ai ai until bth me le.. haha.. i jus cant hlp it k..
i knw i cant luv euu bt i wan to.. i cant resist myself toward u.. im addicted to u.. mis ya lots... haiz..
confuseme [1:35 PM]
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Sunday, September 09, 2007
pathetic
i so damn tired nw.. din slp at all.. ltr wkin 12.. mayb tkin mc.. cant wk la.. im 2 headache le.. freak la.. ytd quarrel wof her abt wu liao tins i no mood to care le k.. hz..
ytd get to c sum1 4 1min.. tat gd enough le.. no words can descride hw i feel n hw hapi i m.. bt i gv e person a heart attack sia.. dots.. im sori..
ttsst argh....
confuseme [6:25 PM]
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
i will nv be the same abby anymore..
my heart nw is lyk break into 2 le.. e pain is there.. i hate tis type of feelin... i duno hw to explain.. bt i wil nv be e same anymore.. i tink i dun wan get into any relationship le ba.. so tiring.. i duno la... today is 7th sep their 1 mth ani... mime dun wan to tok to me le... cuz sth happen ytd.. n nw we no longer fren.. im so sad.. hz.. hope she dun angry wif me le.. im sori abt ytd.. hz... pathetic moodless de me... i hate myself so much.. my heart is dead on e 7th sep...
confuseme [8:13 PM]
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
im gvin up on luv.. pls dun let me go..
i been waitin 4 tat sum1 to msg me bt no reply.. feel so damn sad.. bt try nt to show.. keep in my heart who knw.. e pathetic me lo.. duno wat im doin..msg bt no reply.. feel lyk gvin up on luv le.. im scare to get hurt agn.. wat if tat sum1 find me irritatin.. den dun wan contact me le.. i will be damn sad.. im reali m doin my v best to be there 4 tat sum1 if * nd hlp.. no matter wat i aso wil be there 4 eu de.. if u find me disturbin u jus let me knw.. dun jus keep silent.. i wan to knw wat i do wrong. y lyk tat. im sori if i gt do anyth tat mk u hate me.. im a weak in luv person.. jus let me knw wat u feel inside.. it better to tell early den ltr.. dun hv to wori i wil get hurt by wat u say.. jus tell me k.. anyth jus say.. i will be prepare 4 e worst.. bt jus wanna let u knw hw i feel.. i will always be there u no matter wat k.. 4 days nv c u le i mis euu so much.. anyth can jus tel me de.. i will do it 4 u..i luv eu.. wanna c euu soon.. n pls tc of urself,, dun wanna c euu sick agn.. i mis those hapi tm tgt wif euu. i duno if u hv enjoy goin out wif me.. bt i sure hv.. thks 4 ur tm.. i appreaciate it alots.. n those memories have been store in my head.. every seconds n every min tat we been tgt.. still rem u msg me on my las yr bday.. u mit me.. i still rem whr we went.. thks 4 tat too.. every little tin abt u i aso rem.. i duno y.. mayb it becuz u r sum1 who i admire v long n sum1 i lyk damn lots.. cant get u get of my head.. e day we been close tgt las yr feb wen i get to knw u better i aso rem..e tins u say.. every single tins in fact.. i wrote in my dairy.. haha.. i beg u dun believe bt it true.. i reali reali mis euu lots pls reply my msg k.. i will be waitin ... im waitin 4 euu.. today 4th of sep.. actuali nw is 5th of sep le 3 am plus in e mornin i cant slp.. jus hang up e fone wif sum new frens i mk while im wkin.. haha.. tat cool.. today whole day been tinkin alot.. quarrel wif her agn she say i gv atti to her.. pls lo.. i nv k.. always say me.. u leh u nv bother abt me.. u mk me recal e day on national day.. e pain i had.. do u knw hw it feel lyk.. u leave me alone waitin at ur hse dwnstair.. i duno whr r u n u nv even bother to care jus shut ur hp n enjoy urself.. let me sittin there waitin frm 1230 to 4 plus lyk a fool.. whr gt ppl so stupid lyk me.. i cant bear to lose u.. u always been sum1 i always count 4 n luv. .bt im tryin to 4get e pain k. e pain is nt gone yet. those hurtful words u say to me. keep sayin i mk u no mood. u r e 1 who started all tis k.u tink i wanna treat u tis way meh.. bt im stil ther wen u nd me k.. been feelin so lonely.. aft wk duno whr to go.. so go arcade play game lo. den tk cab hm... u r e 1 who say wanna me to 4get abt my sad memories wanna c me hapi.. bt u r e 1 who hurt me the most... hz.. dun wan say le. u aso dun bother le. im nth to eu anyway.. bt i be there if u r sad de..
confuseme [12:26 PM]
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