Thursday, April 27, 2006
ytd was a fun day but sum1 is nt there....haiz..
i change song le.. it call ni bu zai(you're nt here) by wang li hong... tis song mean alot.. haiz..ytd suppose to mit mindy at paya lebar at 230 but im late so i took a cab dwn den take to paya lebar den to katong.. den we rch e ktv abt 3 plus we plan to sing 4 3 hour but instead we sing 4 another 1 hour cuz kathy haven cm den at last she came.. ytd i sing 3 time kiss gdbye but tat sum1 nt there to listen haiz.. i sing aso no mood de.. e song mean alot to me.. i wont knw tis song if tat sum1 nv listen.. i onli knw e meanin of e song until sth happen but it all too late.. tm cant be turn bk.. haiz.. den sing lot of song e last song i sing is only love..haiz.. dun say le.. den aft ktv we took a cab dwn to suntec.. so sway lo traffic jam but at last rch suntec is $10 le.. hmm.. mit huiqin but she hv to go at 830.. den aft she left we went to food court to eat.. we cant decide wat to eat den at last i say go food court lo.. we eat alot lo.. kathy went to order chicken rice n e vegetable n carrot cake den i went to order e korea de beef n hot n spicy noodle den we 3 start eatin lo.. aft eat so damn full but i bring them go eat ice cream.. we ate banana split n mango tango.. haa.. quite nice.. soo sad e fountain is on renovation so cant go so we went to sky garden... n tis place aso bring bk bad memories... dun wan say le... at there we keep takin photo.. haa.. den we walk to bugis.. walkin to bugis tat path aso bring bk bad memories.. while tokin she call me den i tok on e fone n walk to bugis.. i gald tat she n her bf ok le.. so she alrite nw.. den when rch bugis mindy n kathy left to mit their fren so i went to pasta mania to wait 4 edwin end work lo.. den we took mrt hm... but im stil tokin to her on e fone until i rch my hse busstop den her bf call her so we hang up den me n edwin sit at my hse there e void deck until 12 plus den i went hm... went to bath n do sum hsewk den edwin call me den we tok on e fone until 2 plus den i go slp..you are e only person who can make my heart beat so fast when i c euu tat mean you are e person of my life but you nt here anymore.. i can only c e blurr vision of euu in my memories..but no matter wat u r e only person i tink of every sec every min n everyday.. Ni bU zAi....
confuseme [10:01 AM]
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
haiz.. leadin a boring life...
life nw is so bored meh.... everyday jus go to wk lo den cm bk slp lo.. so sianz.. haiz.. y lyk tat..
hmm.. ytd is my mom bday.. haa.. edwin bought a bday cake 4 her.. ytd while my mom is bathin i faster take out e cake n light up e candle lo.. wanted to gv her a surprise.. haa.. den when she cm out i sing bday song lo.. den my mom n me went to hv lunch at opp.. den i went to wk..ytd nt so bz...but i ytd very blurr lo.. always do wrongly.. aiyo.. i aso dunno y i so blurr..haa.. den everytm kanna say by my manager lo... im wkin today at 10 but im takin mc.. goin to c doc later.. stomach pain.. den keep goin toilet.. haiz.. frm last last thur pain until nw..dunno wat happen to my stomach.. eat too much chilli until stomach spoil le ba.. my mom say de.. nw nv eat so much chilli le.. eat abit.. haa.. i lost abt 1.5kg nia.. my ideal weight is 50.. so got abt 3kg more to lost.. hmm.. i tink can make it de la.. so nw i goin to bring my dog 4 a walk n go n bath him le..den go c doc den go polyclinic c doc lo.. haiz...
hai.. sian.. sick of life....
confuseme [8:40 AM]
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Sunday, April 23, 2006
sad..... wonderin will i hv e chance again..?
i got my contact len le.. yeah.. i took so long to wear lo.. first tm wearin it ma.. tat y took almost 1 hour.. no la.. i tink 30 min ba...heez... so long nv blog le cuz been doin openin... ya.. hmm.. dunno wat to say but nth much happen actually.. but very fun cuz got new ppl wkin at pasta mania.. n one of them is tat jo la.. everytm late 4 wk den i kanna scoldin frm my manager sia..wk at 12 rch wkplace 2pm.. wa.. pro sia.. i last tm alway late 4 wk de aso nt tat late.. hmm.. den manager ask her wk at 4 den end at 8pm.. haa.. den i train her outside.. i teach her do tis n tat lo.. she learn quite fast la.. but onli sometm very blurr.. i c le aso wan to laugh.. lyk i last tm lyk tat but nt tat blurr la.. aiyo.. overall fair cu of lateness.. den 6pm got a new guy cm to wk lo.. den i teach again lo..e same things.. he ok la.. den jo wait 4 us fin wk.. tue we fin doin closin at 1020.. haa.. first tm so early sia... hee.. den we go dwn smoke n tok lo... den me n edwin acc jo hm.. haa.. so fun.. me n jo lyk small kid lyk tat play lo.. omg... hee.. lyk last tm.. i suddenly tink abt e past again.. hai.. hw i wish i could go bk to tat tm again.. so fun... hmm...haiz..den we sit dwn at e park therer where ppl play skateboard de.. sit dwn n smoke lo.. hmm.. den start to walk again.. by the tm rch her hse already 12 le.. so me n edwin took a cab hm.. he send me upstair le he took bus hm.. haa.. so fun.. den e next day i do openin lo.. so tiring.. den in e afternoon jo came dwn pasta.. den edwin jus wk fin den they 2 wait 4 me to end wk i wk until 7 cuz hv to teach e new gals... teach e same whole things again lo.. if onli i can record my voice den i dun hv to repect so many tm... den aft wk me edwin n jo went to mos burger outside sit dwn lo.. den went to play a game of pool den went hm le.. den ytd which is thur.. i do openin again lo.. den jo late 4 wk again.. manager say me again lo.. aiyo.. but nvm.. very fun den aft wk we go order our food to eat lo.. den edwin aft wk at orchard cm dwn to bugis aft eatin we went arcarde lo.. jo wan play guitar.. i treat her play lo.. haa.. so funny sia... hmm..den aft tat i went hm le cu my mom keep callin me.. so noisy sia... den mit my mom at opp my hse lo.. pay bills le go hm.. do lot of hsewk.. bath 4 august cu he very dirty sia..do fin hsewk at 2am den go slp le..
nw goin to mit kathy for lunch b4 she go 4 her hair course lo.. but she haven rch yet.. still waitin.. haa.. today cant go out lo.. sian...
cant wait 4 next wed go ktv.. yeah...
i luv euu n i mis euu.. yes euu.. hope u knw... jus wanna c euu happy n nt get hurt again.. im always here 4 euu..
confuseme [10:20 AM]
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Monday, April 17, 2006
im reali sick le.. been sick 4 5 days...
hai.. so long nv blog le.. cuz no tm.. been wkin..sick aso hv to wk.. wat to do cuz noone can replace me..thur i wk at 12 mornin went to mit my ** den late 4 wk..haa..nvm.. den suddenly stomach pain.. den nv eat much at all.. thur i went to orchard buy things den went to cine bk but nv saw al onli saw ivan i tink she punch out le cuz e tm i go there is abt 9 plus le.. aft buy thing at fr east den took a mrt to amk.. at amk saw huiqin..haa nvm.. den on 132 bus saw al n sum1 aiya shld hv went up to sit..i didnt knw she is on top e bus lo.. den fri is a public holiday stomach damn pain lo.. whole body no strength at all den manager ask me go wk early as one guy cant make it to wk den no choice lo hv to wk.. i wk until 9pm den i ask my manager can i go hm early cuz nt feeling well..den edwin send me hm.. hai.. sat wake up stil nt ok.. stomach stil damn pain.. aso nv eat much.. wk until 6pm den went to mit my mom n sis at OG.. den they wan go pasta eat.. den aft eat go hm lo.. den sun i wk openin to 6pm.. my fren bought me medicine i eat le but haven recover.. hai.. nvm.. aft wk my mom fren send us hm.. den my mom n me went ntuc to buy things lo.. hmm.. tml goin to c doc hope can take mc but dun wan la.. jovern wkin tml.. haa.. she die le.. i goin to bully my xiaodi.. dun go tell everyone im ur ex leh.. pai seh.. haa.. nvm la.. knw den knw lo..arh.. stomach stil pain jus went toilet a few tm le.. got newbies wkin omg i goin to vomit blood le.. no la.. jkin.. haa..hai.. hope tml can c my **.. missin euu... hmm.. ytd tok to euu awhile nia.. haiz..sum1 got chalet worx.. anyway enjoy worx... n pls take care....
confuseme [9:36 AM]
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
im so so sad.....
didnt even tink tat i will get to c euu ytd.. happy to c u again.. lyk once a month can c euu one time.. it gd enough le.. better than nv at all.. euu make my day better.. hope to c euu real soon again.. waitin 4 tat day to cm. hope u r alrite when u r at wk.. take care wor..imu... opps... heez...ya.. i rush out of e hse until 4get to bring my mp3 out... but nvm nth matter to me than can get to c sum1..den i slp in e bus lo.. i miss 147 again..alway lyk tat de.. den 76 cm den i board lo.. take to paya lebar den take mrt to bugis.. mit edwin lo.. he pei me go buy things.. i bought a new ear ring n a new belt.. but too bad wkin tm cant wear.. sian.. den i was tryin on some clothes nut no tm le.. gt to go wk le.. den nv buy lo... wanted to buy necklace.. nvm.. mayb tml aft wk at 8pm i go dwn to orchard to buy lo.. ytd wk tat tm very blurr lo.. dunno wat im doin aso.. a customer wanted to order bacon aglio i go type beef bolognse n e best things is i aso dunno wat happen e receipt there put beef bolognse no spag.. huh.. den e chef reali cook beef bolognse without e mee lo.. omg.. den e gal cm n nag at me lo.. say wat is tis.. omg so noisy lo... hai.. nth to say.. ytd jus very blurr lo.. no mood to wk.. den ytd do fin quite early den take mrt hm lo.. in e mrt when rch somerset i keep lookin ard.. dunno y.. jus feel tat sum1 is takin e same train as me.. cu when rch somerset n orchard is ard 11.10pm le.. it jus e tm sum1 fin wk i guess... but nv get to c tat sum1.. i tink she saw me or wat.. i didnt knw i got a msg until aft hangin up e phone wif jovern.. hmm.. nvm lo.. im contended enough.. sit at e void deck until 12.05 den went hm..
hai.. nw nd to go do hsewk le.. later goin e church thingy.. reali dun feel lyk goin.. wat to do.. today is e actual gd friday.. endin here..
missin euu badly.. hope u r alrite... take care...sian..hmm.........
confuseme [2:50 PM]
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
keyboard spoil le.. i drop it so many tm.. hmm.. ytd mit mindy n kathy at bugis den she pei me go buy sunglsses...i bought 4 her n for myself.. haa.. i strike 4d sia..didnt knw i will win.. i jus anyhw tink of a no. to buy.. won consolation prize lo...better than nth.. i buy 4d 4 wed again.. dunno stil gt luck ma.. thur buy toto... haa... hmm.. ytd manager suddenly scold lo.. cuz sun i teach one guy do closin at e counter area de.. den e garlic toaster behind nv clean properly lo.. i knw it my fault aso dun hv to shout de lo... i whole day no mood le lo.. plus e gal dwn there aso say me.. still shout at me.. wa lau.. damn irritatin lo.. bth.. i whole day no mood at all.. den dunno y my stomach on off pain... hai.. i haven quit smokin yet ytd smoke 6 sticks.. die earlier better wat.. haiz.. damn sick of life lo.. wk aso so boring...there goin be 7 new staff cmin in soon...den hv to train them lo..den goin to hv new drinks at pasta lo.. n it nt jus one lo.. it abt 20 drinks lo.. hw m i goin to rem all sia.. headache ar.. very stress lo.. i dun wan to wk le.. very stress.. im e senior there so i hv to knw everyth lo.. if dunno sure kanna say de lo... reali fan sia.. so many things to learn n do... i cannt be so blurr le.. mus be alert.. goin out soon.. want to buy e green jacket n necklace... but dunno wan go orchard or bishan buy.. hmm.... tired sia...
confuseme [11:01 AM]
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Monday, April 10, 2006
sick le...
jus buy lunch 4 my sis.. den buyin tat tm suddenly heavy rain.. i nw very wet.. lazy change clothes.. den nw keep sneezing.. aiya.. dun care la.. sick better..anyw who care man.. actually tot of goin marina square de.. but nw raining so heavily.. dun tink can go out le ba.. my umbrella n jacket wif edwin..he got bring aso dunno hw to pass it to me de..keep in his bag 4 wat sia..nw i nd i cant use..he jus call den i jus shout at him.. first tm i shouted at him so angrily...aiya.. nwadays my mood gettin frm bad to worse.. dunno wat happen to de last tm de wo.. nw temper very short.. haiz..hw.. who can change me...i so so tired.. wanted to slp but hor i jus slp nt long den some1 keep callin my hse lo.. but i lazy go pick up cuz i was slpin lo... want 2 slp awhile aso cant den aft awhile i wake up n bath lo... nw hv to bath again but lazy la.. rest first... hvin flu again.. frm ytd mornin until nw.. haiz.. wth...
confuseme [12:58 PM]
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
im fine le...thks 4 everyone de concern...
first i wanna thks my fren 4 all 4 ur care n concern.. im alrite n fine n alive.. haa... anyw thks... ytd mit edwin n jovern at bedok we at e hawker there drink n tok 4 awhile den take a bus 33 lo.. they goin pasta head office as jo hv to take her uniform n hv her injection.. next tue n thur she hvin trng worx..haa..but she hv to dye her green hair to a darker color la.. aiyo..den i alight at bugis while they go redhill lo..i go mit my long tm no c fren n hv a drink wif me.. haa.. i mit them at bugis lo.. she cm wif her bf which is aso my sec sch clzmate.. last tm he very childish de.. wa.. nw becm mature le.. he nw in ns.. i bring them go pasta eat lo.. once she saw me she call me ah lian.. huh.. im nt ah lian lo.. i so guai.. my outlook lyk ah lian meh..???haha.. they 2 damn funny lo.. den she keep sayin tat i bully her.. huh.. i bully her dunno who bully who lo.. den abt 2.45 i go wk le lo.. sianz.. but fun la..nt so bz.. haha.. ytd so funy lo.. ytd got 3 gals ma.. den 1 of them lyk frm mp de 1 year older than me de.. den i jus smile at her onli lo.. den she ask her fren i knw her meh.. haa.. den gv tat blur look.. haa.. nvm.. i so paiseh.. dun tell me she tot i lyk her.. no la.. crazy.. but she cute la.. haa.. den keep starring at me.. dotz lo... den one of my fren suddenly stomach pain den she cant wk properly so i msg edwin whether he can wk ma.. can take over her.. den edwin take over her lo.. hmm.. hope she alrite... tot can wk wif her.. so fun.. but nvm lo.. jo tell edwin sth.. hmm.. so he knw abt it le.. so lyk tat lo.. nth to say..im goin to be a loner soon.. he goin ns on 3rd june..i hv to tc of myself le... maybe it a gd n bad things..haiz.. i dunno wat my life goin to be lyk....
confuseme [10:17 AM]
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Friday, April 07, 2006
dunno y .. hao tong ku n xin ku...
dunno y .. reali dunno y i lyk got alot of things on my mind.. i already make up my mind le but dunno y my head stil so heavy... reali tink too much le.. tink too much until i dream tat i was knock dwn by a car... but nv die la.. pretend to die onli.. hmm.. i mean i hv nth to tink le... dunno la.. haiz.. hao fan... den nwadays my temper very bad.. abit onli angry le.. nt angry la lyk very easy get irritated lyk tat.. haiz.. wat happen to me sia.. mayb goin to becm mad le ba.. haizz... difficult to breath sia...ytd ar nth much happen went to wk at 3 lo.. almost late but nv.. when i reach pasta my manager say i dnd leave early ar.. i lucky draw got win sth leh.. i won a hamper but too bad im nt there.. i went off early.. hamper inside got chocolate.. omg.. i wan... my manager say u go nv gv me ur lucky draw ticket if nt she can hlp me claim den my another fren who left wif me win a hi-fi set.. didnt knw we so lucky sia.. but too bad.. mus go buy 4D c got luck ma.. haha.. tat day i left early den go katong de ktv lo.. sing 4 1 hour onli i aso happy.. of cuz la.. i love singin ma.. went wif edwin lo.. zzz... but dunno y very tired.. den i hv alot on my mind.. nt myself tat day.. i was so quiet.. alot alot of things on my mind. i mean e things is so simple lo.. but i tink too much le.. if continue lyk tis will becm mad de.. too much things happen le i cant cope.. if i can get knock dwn by a car will be gd la.. but if i die who look aft my mom n sis.. they r e onli reason i got to carry on.. n tat sum1 la.. if i die i dunno wat will happen to him.. aiyo.. i knw i tis day behv very weird.. i been cold toward u.. im sorry. i dunno hw to explain n tell u but pls let me to be alone.. i hate ppl to force me to do things.. if i dun wan to hold hand mean i dun wan.. i reali wan to be alone.. thks 4 accompany me hm.. but u dun hv to do those things de.. i mean i do care 4 u but care n love is diff... u knw there reali many things on my mind tat i cant take it le.. head very pain.. but i aso dun wan u to be stress or sad or wat.. i dun wan.. there sum things u jus dun understand... hw i feel.. i nv tell u.. wanted to tell u but dunno hw to tell u...
confuseme [11:00 AM]
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
haiz.. sick of life
keyboard spoil le.. i drop it so many tm.. hmm.. ytd mit mindy n kathy at bugis den she pei me go buy sunglsses...i bought 4 her n for myself.. haa.. i strike 4d sia..didnt knw i will win.. i jus anyhw tink of a no. to buy.. won consolation prize lo...better than nth.. i buy 4d 4 wed again.. dunno stil gt luck ma.. thur buy toto... haa... hmm.. ytd manager suddenly scold lo.. cuz sun i teach one guy do closin at e counter area de.. den e garlic toaster behind nv clean properly lo.. i knw it my fault aso dun hv to shout de lo... i whole day no mood le lo.. plus e gal dwn there aso say me.. still shout at me.. wa lau.. damn irritatin lo.. bth.. i whole day no mood at all.. den dunno y my stomach on off pain... hai.. i haven quit smokin yet ytd smoke 6 sticks.. die earlier better wat.. haiz.. damn sick of life lo.. wk aso so boring...there goin be 7 new staff cmin in soon...den hv to train them lo..den goin to hv new drinks at pasta lo.. n it nt jus one lo.. it abt 20 drinks lo.. hw m i goin to rem all sia.. headache ar.. very stress lo.. i dun wan to wk le.. very stress.. im e senior there so i hv to knw everyth lo.. if dunno sure kanna say de lo... reali fan sia.. so many things to learn n do... i cannt be so blurr le.. mus be alert.. goin out soon.. want to buy e green jacket n necklace... but dunno wan go orchard or bishan buy.. hmm.... tired sia...
confuseme [11:01 AM]
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my life....
i dun understand y things do happen very fast..u can be very happy for tis minutes n u r nt e next minutes..u can be happy for tis one month but e next things u knwis everyth jus vanish away...all ur happiness..all ur happy memories together jus nv cm bk..it over.....over because of wat u hv done..den u start to tink bk...wat hv i done....wish i could turn bk e tm.. but it all already too late...wat have been done had been done..wat i hv lost hv already been lost..no matter hw u mend it bk it cant be mend..cuz it stil leave a scar there...e scar is nt perfect anymore...i jus hv to face it...face wat i hv done...reali wish i could 4get everyth...ya.. i can but memories jus cant be forgotten...i knw u dunno e words u say to me is jus so powerful...it reali hurts alot...but it did hlp me to gv up...but nw i tink alot again...i dun reali knw wat is happening..but i do knw it nt goin to be lyk e past anymore...y e tm 4 us is so short...e happiness we hv is jus 4 awhile ..den everyth becm wat we use to be again...e tm when i dunno u well..well all i can say it my doin...i reali confuse...i dunno wat i wan...ya.. i do knw..i wan happiness...i dun wan to go bk to e past..everyone deserve a second chance..but e problem is nt e chance...i reali do wish i could hv a chance but there no hope...actually i aso dunno wat im typin nw.. reali cant tink of anyth..my mind is jus so full of things..i miss e happy tm..i hv many things to say to u but dun hv a chance..so i jus keep it to my heart...reali so confuse..nv felt so confuse in my life b4..i tot tis year will be a gd year 4 me..but it nv be.. ya.. it hv but jus a short while.. all i feel nw is pain..n regrets....ya.. i deserve it but u dun..i reali dun wanna c u sad or unhappy at all..wanna c u happy everyday..dun wanna c u stress..even i dunno hw u been doin nwadays.but i reali wish u r happy..to hv e happiness tat u wan..to hv ur dream to cm true..to be happy always...to be wat u wanna be..to get wat u wan..dun wanna c u get hurt ever again..jus reali hope everyth will went well 4 u again..i jus wanna wish u all e very best in everyth tat u do..n thks alot for hlpin me in one way or other...i reali bless to hv knw u..im happy 4 awhile but it enough to last a lifetm...all my whole life i will always rem...untill i die..reali wish to be there 4 u when u r down..dun wan u to lonely..i reali dun wan u to live in e dark urself..i knw i cant do tat le..but it ok..i jus wish u r alrite n everyth will went well 4 u again..wishes u e best...your truely jayston
confuseme [10:16 AM]
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
fun but stil sad.... reali dunno y..
ytd i wk frm 12 to 8.. dunno y ytd got so many ppl cm eat pasta sia.. den i wan punch out aso cant but aft i punch out le i hlp them awhile den i go le.. cuz i mitin mich.. she waitin 4 me le.. den we go bugis village de mac there eat lo. den we sit dwn n tok.. she tell me abt her problem n i told her abt mine.. cuz i knw she wont tell any1 de..i very stress n confuse.. she do understand y.. n i do understand wat she goin thru.. she feel bad.. but u reali dun hv to feel bad it gd tat u did gv him n u a chance n i tink he will understand wat u r tinkin n u do care 4 him too.. sum things jus cant be force.. love mean love.. dun love mean dun luv.. who can 4get luv so fast de.. no1.. nt even me.. but if she is happy im happy 4 her.. mich ask me i stil lyk al ma... haa.. i jus laugh lo.. lyk is hv la.. but haha.. i dunno... jus tryin to 4get.. it impossible.. i get it.. but my heart dun tat all... very confuse.. dunno la.. den aft eat i mit my fake de pts lo n mindy we actually plan to go esplande de but mich hv to go hm by 10 so i send her to e mrt station lo.. den i went bk to bugis seoul garden go mit a fren i knw in irc.. actually i dunno her but she say she saw me when she pass by pasta.. she heard sum1 call my name..den she knw it me le.. she wif her stead den aft mitin them we all walk to esplanade lo.. while walkin my mom call me y so late haven go hm.. she knw i wk until 8 but i dun care i jus went out wif my fren.. haa.. ytd reali very fun lo.. im very happy but inside is bleedin.. dunno y.. i look happy on e outside but inside is a diff story.. i last tm is a happy go lucky gal without love de.. i tink without love is better ba. freedom dun hv to tink too much... nt stress aso.. last tm i always wish to hv sum1 but nw tink maybe alone is e best.. stil rem sec 1 to sec 4 i dun hv to tink so much but nw jus 3 month onli got so many things happen hw i goin to face it.. everyth happen very fast lo.. happiness is awhile onli u will nv knw wat will happen tml.. so it better to treasure wat u hv nw or later u regret.. i nw knw e important of fren.. sori mich last tm i lyk dun care u de.. but u r stil there 4 me.. n i always here 4 u aso.. anyth can let me knw.. oh ya.. when rch esplansde at abt 10.30pm my mom call ask where m i i say i at suntec wif my fren celebrate bday lo.. den she scold me la y nv tell her where im goin.. den she wan to tok to my fren lo.. she wan my fren to cm hm wif me.. she wan to c wat type of fren im mixin. hse tot kathy is tomboy lo.. no lo.. haa.. so funny.. den we took cab to my hse den my mom tok to kathy awhile den kathy go hm le..den my mom ask me bring august dwn.. but they r still dwnstair my hse... haa.. so funny.. den we keep takin pics lo.. den aft awhile they take a cab hm cuz it already 12 plus le.. den bring august walk awhile den go hm le.. went to bath den do sum hsewk den go slp le..at nite wanted to call sum1 but scare disturb her n it already so late so nv lo.. listen to music awhile fall aslp.. y m i so FOOLISH.. cant i jus let go... y is it so difficult... stupid.. i reali so stupid lo.. love is always so foolish de.. there sum1 who reali luv u alot but u dun go treasure but u go love sum1 who dun reali love u as much as sum1 do.. reali stupid...pls i nd an ans soon or i goin to go mad already...
confuseme [10:12 AM]
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
haiz.....
ytd wk at 10 lo.. so tired lo.. den summore nt feelin well.. got alot of things to do in e mornin n summore is 1 person do onli..ytd i so slack lo...wan die dun wan die lyk tat..den afternoon aft eat e chef ask me go suntec hlp him take tomato sauce.. den i walk there lo.. haiz.. go suntec again.. bad memories... wa.. e tomato sauce so heavy lo.. i tink is ard 10kg ba or more.. i dunno.. i onli knw e more i carry e more heavy it is.. rch bugis tat tm i so wet already..den very tired le lo...den wk till 6pm i go change den go shoppin.. haa.. he bought 4 me e contact len le but mus wait 4 2 week den ready...i bought e brown color de..it cost $70..den i went to find sunglasses... den went to buy pants lo.. e pants quit tight la. later goin bk to change one size bigger.. haa.. my mom hlp me buy e collar shirts le.. i still wan go buy watch n more shirts.. n ya.. my bag...waitin 4 my mom to gv me my money lo.. she say u tink u earn $800 alot ar.. excuse me.. i knw it nt alot.. but u knw hw hard i wk ma.. i try my very best nt to late lo.. dunno wan pierce ear ma.. mayb dun wan le la.. ytd bought e ear ring i cant even wear.. difficult to wear la... haiz.. they goin kbox today i cnt go cuz im wkin..they 2 damn cute sia.. everytm they cm find me i cant stop laughin sia.. cuz they r reali cute tgt.. hope they can last long tgt... wish them all e best...i referin to jovern n her stead... haa.. hey jovern e money tat i lend u dun nd return la... nvm... if u nd anyth or wat jus let me knw i will try my very best to hlp u de.. cuz i treat u as my xiao didi.. or xiao mei mei la.. i dunno la... but i will alway be there 4 u de..tat day at e fountain wif jovern tat tm i wish wat u wan to knw...i wish i hope tat i can find sum1 who i truely luv n sum1 who truly luv me n hope i can last long wif tat sum1 lo... but lyk haven cm true leh.. dunno la.. stil waitin...............i still miss u alot......tat sum1 who had nv left my mind is u..haiz...
confuseme [10:24 AM]
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Monday, April 03, 2006
dunno.....hao xin ku
dunno y .. reali dunno y i lyk got alot of things on my mind.. i already make up my mind le but dunno y my head stil so heavy... reali tink too much le.. tink too much until i dream tat i was knock dwn by a car... but nv die la.. pretend to die onli.. hmm.. i mean i hv nth to tink le... dunno la.. haiz.. hao fan... den nwadays my temper very bad.. abit onli angry le.. nt angry la lyk very easy get irritated lyk tat.. haiz.. wat happen to me sia.. mayb goin to becm mad le ba.. haizz... difficult to breath sia...ytd ar nth much happen went to wk at 3 lo.. almost late but nv.. when i reach pasta my manager say i dnd leave early ar.. i lucky draw got win sth leh.. i won a hamper but too bad im nt there.. i went off early.. hamper inside got chocolate.. omg.. i wan... my manager say u go nv gv me ur lucky draw ticket if nt she can hlp me claim den my another fren who left wif me win a hi-fi set.. didnt knw we so lucky sia.. but too bad.. mus go buy 4D c got luck ma.. haha.. tat day i left early den go katong de ktv lo.. sing 4 1 hour onli i aso happy.. of cuz la.. i love singin ma.. went wif edwin lo.. zzz... but dunno y very tired.. den i hv alot on my mind.. nt myself tat day.. i was so quiet.. alot alot of things on my mind. i mean e things is so simple lo.. but i tink too much le.. if continue lyk tis will becm mad de.. too much things happen le i cant cope.. if i can get knock dwn by a car will be gd la.. but if i die who look aft my mom n sis.. they r e onli reason i got to carry on.. n tat sum1 la.. if i die i dunno wat will happen to him.. aiyo.. i knw i tis day behv very weird.. i been cold toward u.. im sorry. i dunno hw to explain n tell u but pls let me to be alone.. i hate ppl to force me to do things.. if i dun wan to hold hand mean i dun wan.. i reali wan to be alone.. thks 4 accompany me hm.. but u dun hv to do those things de.. i mean i do care 4 u but care n love is diff... u knw there reali many things on my mind tat i cant take it le.. head very pain.. but i aso dun wan u to be stress or sad or wat.. i dun wan.. there sum things u jus dun understand... hw i feel.. i nv tell u.. wanted to tell u but dunno hw to tell u...
pls... im sori but can let me be alone....
nd to go out soon le.. edwin mitin jovern first den bring her to pasta mania head office.. collect uniform n take injection lo..im mitin them later... i nw hao xin ku.... dyin soon
confuseme [10:48 AM]
___makee a wiish___
Saturday, April 01, 2006
wO zheN de bU miNg bai
JuS wat is L O V E......who cAn teLL me sIa....i reaLi duNNo sia...i waNna to knOw...y M i sO cOnfuse...y caNt i jUs let Go...jus Let go n Move oN...i waNna moVe On... mY hearT teLL me nT too...i dUn underStand y too...maYbe tAt is luv..haa... i reaLi duNno...iM lauGhin at myseLf ...hw foOlish can i geT wheN i luv sum1...i jUs knw One thing.......mY LOVE life sUx.....
confuseme [12:45 PM]
___makee a wiish___
