bad n gd memories...
haiz.. wat i tink is impossible hv already been possible... but y is it happenin tis way the person i long to be wif is e person i dun long to be wif anymore when i wif him.. ya.. i do wish to be wif ivan again but when we were stead again on 25 oct..i hv no feeling 4 him le.. he say im jealous tat he lyk sum1 else le. ya.. im jealous but i nt tat bad de lo..if u can be wif her i will gv u my blessin n will be happy for u de.. the reason y i hv no feelin 4 him le is maybe becuz tat he nv care abt me at all.. he nv msg nor call me.. den wat for stead sia..i rather be a fren to u even better.. im damn stress.. i dun wan to tok abt it le..
hmm..ytd sum1 find me worx ask me lend shoesbag.. haha.. den we tok for abt 3 hour.. so long nv tok tat long on the fone le since sumth happen.. i aso dun y i would do tat to u on 17 sep.. i can say tat im damn stress tat tm.. i needed a break frm u n me.. n becuz of the religion things make me very confuse n cuz of lot of things..we aso been quarrel tat few days.. aft we broke up i did feel much better i try to 4get everyth.. but aft abt 2 weeks later memories of us keep flashin bk again.. i jus cant 4get u.. i dun knw hw much u mean to me until i lose u.. maybe becuz of tis den i knw tat i do love u alot once... as i told u ytd u r the best stead i ever hv n i reali mean it frm the bottom of my heart beside all the quarrel we hv.. n im gald tat all the misunderstandin we hv has been clear n it my fault sori 4 startin it all up...i use my words wrongly..sori.. i tot we will nv tok to each other again but im gald tat u tok to me on 17 oct.. which is 1 mth later.. haha.. better than nv.. n we did go out twice once wif me, u , n sum1 else.. another tm is wif u , me , mich n ur stead tat tm...im happy to go out wif u..i aso dun knw y..jus so happy loz even though i hv to treat u eat..haiz.. no money le haha.. but if u hv any trouble or problem can let me knw de i will try my best to hlp u de.. i still rem when aft i send u to 10 storey u ask me to find myself a stead soon.. hw can i...i knw sayin too much aso no use de.. but i jus wan to release stress i dun wan to bottom up my feelin le..it so painful.. lucky u nv c the cuts on my hand haha.. but i did wan to be wif u again but couldnt bring myself to tell u cuz im the one who wanted the break up.. if can will be better..haha.. jus dreamin ba i guess.. but i aso did scare tat wat will happen if we patch bk again i dun wan my feelin 4 u to fate away.. i dun wan to ever hurt u again cuz i did hurt u alot le.. i wan to hug u 4ever n nv let u go again.... but i dun dare cuz i nv ever wan to hurt u again... miss u lot.. haiz.. but if reali cant be together i can be there 4 u i already very satisfy le... arhz.. hv to go wk le.. gtg take care worx...
